SHOUTS

Its ends with a fullstop .

2009-02-08T01:13:00.003+08:00

{ I won't forget this 2pictures :D }

Hey guys .
I'm back to Single life .
Perhaps, I've to blame myself for not being good enough,
Well, everything had ended already , i can't do anything to help.
As long as he's happy, i'm happy.
I'll still be fine without ApizAsek.
I'll have to live my life without ApizAsek.
I'll be strong, even without ApizAsek. (:
I want ApizAsek to be happy =D .

I admit, i did cried, i do miss him & i still love him.
But, everything should come to an end right now.
I'll recover soon.
Don't intend to start a relationship in mean while.
I'll prove to those who thinks that i'm a flirt,playgirl or what so ever.
I'll prove you guys wrong alrights .

; If you remembered the quotes/text below :

Most relationships are like delicate flower,
Eventually they dry and die .
Mine is like a cactus ,
I'll always be poking you so that you will remember me always.

If you need me and there are a hundred steps between us,
You can take the first step to get near me,
& i'll take all 99steps to be there for you .

If time slips away without a word from me ,
You don't have to worry about our relationship,
Because feelings beyond words will always keep me around you.

'I've started to miss the days when you nag at me.
I've started to realise how's life without you with me.
I've started to notice, your encourages meant alot to me.
I've started to face that, you're no longer here with me.

As i said, I never blame anyone.
But, myself.
For putting to high hopes, for thinking too much,
I know its very good/proud to have a hot boyfriend,
Its also very hard to keep a hot boyfriend.
I lose you, but, its okay.
At least you'll be happier without me by you.
However, I'll still be far far behind you, watching over you.
Hope you can find a really sweet girlfriend that gives you happiness (:
I don't have to pretend anymore.
We're really over , I'll learn to let go of you.
Thank you for the 1week memories ,
Thank you for spending 1 week with me,
I really appreciate you very very much.
You're the best damn thing. HAHA.
Whatever it is, All the best. =D

There's so much i wish to tell you )'=

2009-02-07T21:21:00.004+08:00

Third song - Suo Yi (Slyvester Sim)
I translate to english by my own, As i can't find the translated lyrics .

:
Think of the first time i seen you,
I've a very strange 'Feeling'?
I feel myself quietly drawing near you.
Think of the second time i seen you,
Feeling not so happy,
Because i found out our distance is far away,

Is this love or you're too gorgeous ,
Made me do impossible/Unexpected things ,
I just know that i want you to be happy,
I'll do whatever things as long as i can stick with you,

I could only hide all the words i wanted to say in my heart,
Because i just want you to be happy,
I know it will be tough & i'll feel sad,
But, i'm willing to do anything,
No matter if its windy nor stormy day, no matter where you are...

I knew how sweet you are with your boyfriend,
So, i could only look you from far & be your guardian angel.
Everytime when i saw him holding your hand,my tears couldn't stop flowing.
I could only step back slowly, bit by bit,
I can't say anything,
But, just endure the pain.

{ Sorry if its like, no link, you don't understand what im trying to say,
Cos its really hard to translate T.T }

Today woke up at around 10am ,
Sy texted me asking if i want to go library with her,
So, meet her around 11plus, den went to eat .
After eating , headed to library , do abit homework,
Around 1.35pm , we headed to civic's party world.
Everytime i feel troubled, there would be the best place for me! (:
Sing sing sing non stop, even if im still sick, my voice goes out of tune,
I just don't give a damn! Sing alot alot. Bill was $28.60 . =X
After singing, its about 5plus, went to time zone,
We found out a interesting game, Like, playing roller coaster.
$4 per play, we went to try. Its fun but, i feel dizzy after playing.
After that, mos-burgered & Headed back to library.
After than, I couldn't hide my emotions anymore,
The more i know, the more i wish i've never know.
My tears rolled down my cheeks, I want to go back home.
After that headed home, i feel like crying in the bus,
While i walk home, i feel like, tears wanna pour out,
But, i have to tahan, cause, people around me will look .
Till i reach home,
Seriously, i didn't sleep well yesterday night after i found out all this.
Its hard for me to face it.
I didn't know , in many people's heart, im just a playgirl perhaps?
Well,Maybe. but, i can say, when i like someone, i'll put my feelings on him alone.
I might look out for hot guys, but, in my heart, its just the guy i love. none.
Till than , i couldn't say anything.
I love darl , i really do.
But, why so many things is poping out at this time?
Should i trust you? Should i endure?
I know i can't . I've already said everything to you.
I'm just waiting for a reply or explaination.
Perhaps, you won't explain at all.
Maybe , you just treated me like how you treat other girls.
I've nothing much to say, i never blame you.
I can only blame myself, for not being good enough for you.
But, I've tried my very best to be a good girlfriend,
perhaps, i haven reach your expectations somehow.
Now, its still a question mark, waiting for your replies .
I've given up the hopes already,
I'm prepared for the worst after i knew everything .
I thought we could last for at least a month,
I thought, we could make it through as what you said,
But, I'm just being the biggest fool ._. '/
I wish, i didn't know the truth, at least, i can hide from reality,
But, now, i know i can't anymore, cos i already knew the facts.

; Sometimes , Unpredictable things happened all of a sudden,
Sometimes, its really very hard to accept the fact & face the reality .
It all takes time, I'm just not good enough for you.
Sorry for my imperfections .
I'll leave if you asked me to . (:
I still love you & i still miss you )'=
I wish to see you again , how i wish you would explain.
But, i know you won't .

Tag's replies :
Audrey : Hmmms, Its hard )'=
Ahyeen : Hmms, i'm not with rojak as you knew already .
Anonymous : Yeap. However , sometimes, its hard to ):
NANA : Did already .
Shuting : Just again , its hard perhaps, im trying.
Passerby x3 : Erm , yah. haish.
!Aiko;Charmian : Ilyt . (:
!Ah tiingg :Hello, Thanks for tagging.
Ahyeen : Girlf!! ; )'= .
Shuqi : Tyvm.

I kept climbing & hope that things would change.
Why did you just leave me?
just leave me be, just leave me be, just leave me?

2009-02-06T20:26:00.003+08:00

Like i said , Today is a bad day ever yeah.
Things keep affecting my mood and emotions .
There's nothing else i could do , Is either face it, or leave it.
For me, I'll face it than.
I know , i must not let things break me down.
Yes, I admit it affected me, 2friends & boyfriend were involved.
I really don't mind if people hate me, But, don't have to do small actions behind me,
Likewise ask people to scold vulgarities at me ,
I'll be recovering after all these things is over,
I know this matter won't rest too fast, too easily,
I'm prepared for everything.
The main thing is, I don't want because of 1 person,
Affect me & my girlfriends relationship & the relationship i've with my bf.
Today is really a bad day,
Waited for bilian GF at interchange this morning, its Cross Country day.
Went up to MacDonald to have my breakfast .
After that headed to admiralty park , took bus 903.
Basically, we're in beetoven house tee-shirt .
When we reach there, its already full of silian's .
Went over to sit down at beetoven's corner ,
C-division starts first, After that B-division , Then our mass run.
After x-country ended, I headed home alone,
Walked over to republic poly bus stop & wait for bus 169 home.
I admit i was sad after his call , But then , it should not really matters.
Yes , these days we've been quite a kind of friend ,
But, i think back & ask myself ,
True friends won't do this to someone who treated them as a friend.
When you needed me to help up asking things about my gf, did i rejected you?
I didn't! Well, Forget it all than.
Today is a day , I'll never forget how unlucky it was.
How i wish i never stepped into this school ,
I just read bilian GF blog, i cried, so so much.
Today during cross country mass run,
3 good friends is walking infront of us,
Suddenly, at this moment, bilian GF say,
'I really envy the 3girls infront of us, Last time we use to be in 3 .
Why now short of one? )'= , at that time, i feel like crying.
She was right , In the first place, first time we step into siling secondary school,
We shouldn't make a decision to be sisters, after a year,
We fought & ended the sister ship, till than, we finally patch up thing last year.
I was happy for the patch back , I'm trying my best to cherish you 2.
I know, i'm not good, I've super duper bad attitudes,
We share secrets, we use to be girls that will laugh out loud all of a sudden in a shopping mall,
Now, we couldn't anymore, Its no longer the same.
Supposedly, our friendship would last ,
Last 2years , i didn't cherish you 2 hard enough & letted go so easily.
I admit, i was the one at fault, i really appreciate both of your presents,
When i was broken down due to break up,
You called me, encourages me, cheered me up & willing to be friends with me.
Till than , i realise, Friends are the one that keep me going.
Now , things changed, people changed,
I know, i understand, i'll not blame you all,
I should think & reflect on what i've been doing these days.
I hope, we could be together back again, happily.
My dear girl, We can't afford to lose you.
In this friendships, we've eventually dropped alot of tears,
I could remember, last 2 years when we apart, im crying every single day,
Now , that im talking about this, i'm crying too,
its not that im being emotional, but, its not that im emoing now.
I really wish to cherish & hold on longer to our friendship.
I really need the both of you & i love you guys deeply!

Towards boyfriend ,
I know i've to trust you in order to let this relationship goes smoothly.
Well, maybe just lack of confidence .
Hope you won't get influenced by friends that might be going against me.
Simply , islyvvm while my heart is obliterated .

-A kiss can be a comma, a question mark,
or an exclamation point.
That's basic spelling that every woman ought to know.

I'll never give up if i still wanna try it out.
Ily & yes i do.
Hope everything goes on smoothly though we'll apart, i know.
But, i still does cherish the remaining days .
You once said, Together we'll make it, i hope we really will.
Life might just black out all of a sudden,
The world might apart anytime,
But, The words, the promise, i won't forget,
Although promise are meant to be brokenned,
But, i still do trust you darl . (:

I'M SO PISSED OFF AYEAH!

2009-02-06T13:09:00.003+08:00

I'm so angry, Upset & Stressed right now.
Firstly : Friendship problems .
- Though, We've been through alot of things,
Nothing seems settled down,
We need a time, when 3 of us sit down together & talk.
We don't really have a problem , But, Misunderstanding perhaps.
I really don't wish to see F's goes from bad to worse.
I really cherish all of you, the love, cares,concerns,
Words couldn't tell much , my heart knews it, i really do, if you wonders.
Girlfriends are my first priority, true .
I don't want anything or anyone to break us up.
A mistake for the start in secondary one, we all thought it could last.
But, since we chosen to start, can we continue?
Everything changes , Could we be back?
I miss the times, Secondary 1, Cross country,
We 3 use to run , jog, walk together .
Now, without anyone of you, Everything falls apart )'=
Don't walk away, We 3 shares a heart.
I really love you , 2 of you, my life!
Secondly : BGR VS FS.
Today, i've to give up on this friendship .
I'm very upset right now, crying over & over again.
This matter won't stop, because of 1 person.
Causing me so much problems, i really buay tahan already lah.
I ask myself,
Why not you just come to me alone, we both just talk all the unhappy thing out?
In the first place, i didn't hate you , at all, i swear.
Till that day , You pointed at me, you dislike me,
But, what can i do?
I don't understand why you have to call other ppl to scold me loh.
Zzz . Does it benefits you?
Why not just talk 1 to 1 with me?
If you don't want to let the matter rest, den lets talk 1 to 1 than.

Happy 1year anniversary to me & bilian GF!

2009-02-05T22:09:00.003+08:00

Hello, Blogging again =)
Firstly : Happy 1Yr Anniversary Bilian GF!
Secondly : Happy Birthday Charmian! (:

Hi everyone.
Basically i just reach home about 40mins ago.
Today lesson's as usual, learn new topic for maths,
Went counselling, Ps time talking about internet pornography & afternoon lessons.
Darl ask it wanto meet, weeeeeeeeeee.
After school, took 903 to cwp with bilian GF.
After that i headed home, bathe & all,
Meet darl & s2 at marsiling.
After that go slack slack uhs. Emoing , crapping around..
From day till night, sky turns black.
Was looking around for stars yet found none ):
Nevermind, after that, around 8plus, went to 7eleven, s2 buy things.
Den cannot open the bottle cap, so, i tell him, go ask the person open la.
He keep say don have the cap opener, end up i go lor, opened.
HAHA. den he have to say ty to me, & when i go, darl follow behind,
after that he saw the cap opened, he like, paiseh. hahaha =DDDD
He cute lahs, Okay, after that , around 9.30, cabbed home.
Went 7eleven to buy tibits ;D

Tomorrow gonna go admiralty park for cross country.
ROARS! =D
After that meet darl ? hopefully as said yesterday.
Okay, bye there.

'Love is fragile,Pathetic,Wonderful,Emotional,Everything,Unpredictable,life happiness,
Sensation,Weakness,Sorrow,Pain,Complex,cruel,Drug,Affection.'

} If you realise, You've changed'girl.
I didn't use to cherish our friendship 2years ago,
We been through lots of thick & thins too.
Those laughters, tears,happy & unhappy things,
Till now, we're already at secondary 4.
Four years, How hard life has been.
I know, we'll have to trust, but, sometimes, is hard to.
Because, we'll always wonder , think of negative things.
I hope you understand ,
I wish everything will be okay,
& Hope you know, things get serious thats why its up here.
We love you & thats why we care for you.
I hope everything will be back as usual,
3 people , 1 heart , less 1ppl, no more heart .

Can i just say to you, irlyvvm?

2009-02-04T21:28:00.002+08:00

Hello , blogging again.
Today went to school as usual .
& As usual, classmates likes teasing me. =X
Okay, lesson's as usual.
Nothing much to say today,
After school, went to causeway point with Bilian GF, walk walk.
Bought nose studs, after that headed home alone.

' Sometimes, Things starts to change ,
Till i realise, Everything seems to start off silently by your side's .
So,I'm not happy at all. Because , i wasn't that good for you. (:
You're hiding , I'm crying .
Its hard to hide away the reality, It hurts deep inside, im enduring, if you did realise it.

2009-02-03T22:14:00.002+08:00

Basically, Today didn't attend school , as i was very sick yesterday night,
Today woke up around 11plus? My throat getting better already,
Unlike yesterday, Well, today was a kind of bored yeah.
Around 2plus, tot of meeting darl at that time, suddenly he text me saying he got detention,
I was like, disappointed, den nvm, i wait, around 3.45, i go take bus to school,
waiting for muz all, after that headed to marsiling.
Den Someone point me middle finger sia, i like, what the fuck?
CB loh, i never do anything to you sia, knn.
After that i shout "Fuck you" & left. wahaha.
Muz also saw sia, Then keep tell me relax. LOL.
So & so, Darl wake up from his sleep , XD.
Den meet him as suppose to, Meet at 134 play ground, slack slack,
after that , muz left, den we walk to void deck slack, till 9.30, cab home.
So freaking tired yeah. Tomorrow gonna school again. yawn.
Have to say, i haven did my art thing yet. haish.

End with ... A quiz tagged by Christina (:

1. Beside your lips, where is the favourite spot to get kissed?
- Cheeks?
2. How do you feel when you wake up this morning?
-Tired,Throat getting better,I miss darling.
3. Who was the last person you took a photo with?
- Myself .
4.Would you considered yourself to be spoiled?
-No.
5. Would you ever donate blood?
- I don't know.
6. have you ever had a best friend who was the opposite sex?
- Yes, of course!.
7. Do you want someone dead?
- Yes , Those who misunderstood me, those who loves to flirt & seek for attention,
Those who make last min changes & Ka my jiao wei one's.
8. what does your last text message says?
-Hw long?Does it take life time? I can't tell u the cure,but,hope it will cure.
9. what are you thinking right now?
-Thinking of my darling .
10. Do you wish someone be with you right now?
- Yes. Darl.
11. what is the time you go to sleep last night?
-Around mid night.
12. Where did you buy the t-shirt you are wearing now?
- My aunt bought it, im not sure.
13. Is someone on your mind right now?
- Yes, Darling! ApizAsek!
14. who was the last person who texted you?
-Somebody .
10ppl tagged to do this quiz.
- ApizAsek
-Bilian
-Audrey
-Ahyeen
-Haziqah
-Joleen
-Irwan
-Shang yuan
-Shuqi
-Desmond
15. who is 2 having a relationship with?
-Ulysses.
16. is 3 a male or a female?
-Female.
17. if 7 & 10 get together, will it be a good thing?
-They will not get to know each another nor being a gay!
18. what is number 1 studying about?
-Ermmmmm. Ask him xD
19. when was the last time you had a chat with them?
-Minutes ago.
20. Is number 4 single?
-Yes.
21.Say something about number 2.
- My girlfriend, crazy,high,emotional,joker.
22. what do you think about number 3 & number 6 being tgt?
-Nahs, not les.
23. Describe number 9.
-Funny, playful.
24. what will you do if number 6 and 7 fights?
-Stop them.
25. do you like number 8?
- Erm, humor ? XD

; My love for you, might not be the greatest among all.
It might not be the most important thing to you,
But, darling,you meant alot to me, basically, everything to me.
You said, we can make it, i hope we really could,
Cause' i love you more than you ever know.
Its hard to live without you by my side .
Every time i meet you, i don't wish to go back home.
I wish time would stop & we could stay together forever.
You're the only one i love, i swear .
I hope, our relationship will get better & better .
Last long alrights? xD .
I love you always ♥

Tell me why? What should i do to ease these pains?!

2009-02-02T22:47:00.002+08:00

Hi, im here to blog again,
Currently not in a good mood, super not happy & sad alrights.
Jealousy kills me straight. knn.
Okay, today went to school as usual.
Meet bilian GF as usual, headed to school, after that assembly,
kinda bored, pe, luckily don have 2.4 run today, if not i'll die.
Seriously, im sick, so so sick, right now.
From yesterday i already feel not so well. till now, its horrid,
Not gonna school tml, i think, gonna see a doctor perhaps.
Lesson's today as usual, after school, went for dance practice.
After that, headed home alone.

; Today was a bad day, bad bad day,
I was so sick right now, sore throat, stress,can't breathe well, cough,flu.
What the fuck, so unlucky sia.

'I admit my mood is swinging,
I really can't tolerate this alright,
I can't take jokes, really.
I hate all these that happened, i feel so pathetic.
Its so hard to explain how i feel now, just seems dying.
I'm super duper hyper pekcek now.
Jealousy kills, but, im not gonna die.
live it up , i would have predicted this will happen already what.
Just that i force myself to put one of my leg inside the grave.
I really feel like crying out loud now.
FUCK THE STUPID & IDIOTIC LOVE LAH.
'Flirts deserve the worst, yes, they deserve the worst of all'.

; Only if i could tell you how my heart feels right now,
Its breaking, each cracks shows how pain my heart feels now.
Its hard to tolerate all this . What can i do to ease the pain?!
When you aren't there either.
Forget it, Love is always like this. Hurts & pain is the best memories ever.
I will remember all these pains right now alrights .
{ Wo de xin hen tong hen tong, ni zhi dao ma?
Bu yao yong wo de ai lai shang hai wo! }

-Fuck everything upside down alrights . _l_!
Hongster never die, tiongxim first to die,
Faithful is a lie, flirting is whoever's life lah.

I know, i love you so much .

2009-02-01T22:46:00.002+08:00

; Picture taken on 30'31/01/09 :D

Hello readers, im back to blog again .
Today is a tiring day & im terribly sick right now.
Woke up at 9plus am today, yesterday slept at 3am.
Basically, heard the television showing doraemon & i couldn't wait to see! =D
After that sms that someone, after that we decided to meet.
Was waiting for dar to wake up, he so lazy uh. After that, meet up with him.
Meet at 206, bilian GF came to acc me first, after that they came.
Today is a unlucky day, mood swing ayeah.
Will not be in good mood this few days .~
After that we go slack , walk to the sea side there, the place where we run 2.4.
Alot of bangala man, basically, we were fooling around.
After that, slack under bilian block,
Den around 8, headed home, dar acc me wait for bus uh.
HAHA.

Ilovehimsia! omg.
Might be distance away but, feeling is beyond distance.
As long as feeling is there, even if we don't meet every single day,
we'll never apart,
I admit i was jealous when i saw him texting ppl but, i donno who it is.
I always wonder & all. i was afraid to lose him.
Hope feeling don't fade away yeah.

Darling! I love you lah. x)

I wish to see shooting stars{!!!}

2009-02-01T02:12:00.006+08:00

Hello earthlings, I know its kinda late right now.
Basically, was waiting for my sis to let me use the com yeah.
Today went to meet fbf & someone.
Suppose to meet 2.30, end up im still not ready, delayed to 3..
But, i was late too, sorry yeah =X , After reach, use someone phone to watch,
Tom & Jerry (Low-quality) & Happy tree friends.
After that, we headed to woodland centre, They wanted to play pool,
But, end up decided not to, den they go th arcade play awhile haha.
Exciting yeah. After that, we are like, where to go? here or there? & so.
End up went to watch movie x) 'Chandni Chowk to china' ; 5star rated.
But, alot of the part they speaking other lauguage, i catch no ball,
only can read the subtitle =D After movie, headed to marsiling area,
After that go 7eleven, i admit, before that i was in a bad mood,
Basically, im sad. After that, buy things & headed to the hill,
Sit there, slack2 , btw, tot there wont be any stars, was waiting & waiting,
after that saw 2lil stars, i was like, wow. miracle.
After that, someone go emo, den left me & fbf, basically, fooling around loh.
Eating sweet. haha, around 11.30, walk down from hill,
den meet someone at his block, after that, they accompanied me to wait for bus 913.
Headed home alone, as usual . haha.

; 010209 ; 01.45am ' I belong to him =DD
' Sometimes , Love turns round & round.
Make human's a fool sometimes,
But, when it turns to a right person , Happiness will come towards.
I believe, since we are together now, means we've fate .
So, no matter what, i'll cherish you & the relationship.
Simple & easy word ; ily. i mean it. (:
Maybe many people's will start talking about us, but, i don't care already yeah.
ily = ily. ; nothing can pull us apart .wahaha.
& i was blue black becase of him, gahhhs :/

Tag's replies :
Audrey : Haha, we bo fate, Cmi liao (:
Passerby : 'Breakaway'
Shuting : yeah. x) , Thanks .
Yan'ism : lolol. it makes no difference okay, i talk or not, you also using hp what,
so, next time don say till as if i affect your so called "Studies" . Zzzzz.
Anonymous : Hello, Thanks for your concern anyway (:
!Aiko;Charmain : Its Waiting - boa x)
Junxian : LOL. you also very cute hor? haha, ya la ya la, you warmblooded. =X
Passerby x3 : Heeheehs. Thank you ! hmm, im not sweet & pretty either :D
Ahyeen : Heeheeh. my blog got quote to copy ? =D

A Real Boyfriend :
When she walks away from you mad - [Follow her]

When she stare's at your lips - [Kiss her]

When she pushes you or hit's you - [Grab her and don’t let go]

When she start's cursing at you - [Kiss her and tell her you love her]

When she's quiet - [Ask her what’s wrong]

When she ignore's you - [Give her your attention]

When she pulls away - [Pull her back]

When you see her at her worst - [Tell her she's beautiful]

When you see her start crying - [Just hold her and don’t say a word]

When you see her walking - [Sneak up and hug her waist from behind]

When she's scared - [Protect her]

When she lay's her head on your shoulder - [Tilt her head up and kiss her]

When she steal's your favorite hat - [Let her keep it and sleep with it for a night]

When she tease's you - [Tease her back and make her laugh]

When she doesn’t answer for a long time - [reassure her that everything is okay]

When she looks at you with doubt - [Back yourself up with the TRUTH]

When she say's that she like's you - [she really does more than you could understand]

When she grab's at your hands - [Hold her's and play with her fingers]

When she bump's into you - [bump into her back and make her laugh]

When she tells you a secret - [keep it safe and untold]

When she looks at you in your eyes - [don’t look away until she does]

WHEN SHE MISSES YOU - [SHES HURTING INSIDE]

When you break her heart - [the pain NEVER really goes away]

When she says its over - [she STILL wants you to be hers]

- Stay on the phone with her even if she’s not saying anything

- DON'T let her have the last word

- NEVER call her hot! Pretty and beautiful is soo much better

- Say you love her more than she could ever love you

- Argue that she is the best girl ever

- When she's mad hug her tight and don't let go

- When she says she's ok ,don’t believe it, talk with her

- When she says she's sorry, she truly means it

- Because 10 yrs later she'll remember you

- Call her at 12:00am on her birthday to tell her you love her

- Call her before you sleep and after you wake up

- Treat her like she's all that matters to you

- Tease her and let her tease you back

- Stay up all night with her when she's sick

- Watch her favorite movie with her or her favorite show even if you think its stupid

- Give her the world

- Let her wear your clothes

- When she's bored and sad, hang out with her

- Let her know she's important

- Kiss her in the pouring rain && When she runs up at you crying,
the first thing you say is ; "Who's ass am I kicking today baby?"

Love always hurts someone, isn't it?

2009-01-31T11:45:00.003+08:00

Hello, back to blogging about yesterday.
Basically, went to school as usual, everything is okay.
I was super duper angry with someone. say want to concentrate on studies,
end up using handphone all the way, i was like, what the fuck?!
Gahhh. Forget it, you know who you are lah.Zzz.
After school, went for dance practice, so tired uh.
End dance at 5plus yesterday, quickly headed home, bathe & all.
Meet bilian gf at 903, basically, i was late for about 15mins,
When i reach she already give that face. -_______-"
Haha, but, 10times meet, 9times i wait , 1time you wait nia, so, relax.
LOL. After that,actually wanto go orchard, but, like, kinda late,
& so bored, so, end up go bishan, basically went to eat.
After that go walk awhile, den headed back woodlands,
After that took 913 to marsiling, meet fbf.
Went to the hill? haha, someone say got escalator, lol.
Its staircase! Grrr . After that, kahkin join us, awhile ,
Den after that, bus came, bilian GF left.
he received a call & left, after that, after that, around 12plus am,
Was waiting for bus at bus stop, someone act like ghost, make the
passer by stare at him. ROAR. Btw, fbf pinch me sial.
GRR, so pain loh. Smack him uh. i realise he scared to tickling. x))))
HAHAHA. so funny seh. have a fun day yesterday with them yeah.

Today, Wanted to collect lens but, cant reach my supplier.
Hope tomorrow can collect, as i emailed her already.
She haven tell me has all the lens arrived not, hope none is oos.
Okay, update back tonight. byes!

Love until i feel the pain (:

2009-01-29T20:07:00.002+08:00

Hey guys, i'm blogging again..
My mood is bad right now, super duper hyper sad .
Today went to school as usual , didn't take the same bus with bff.
Nvm, after that, headed to school, kinda late already yeah..
Lesson's as usual, not really feeling well today, during pe.
teacher ask to do shelter run, after that feel like, want to vomit liao.
Den never, den do pull up, miracle sia, tyco do 6times, rawrs.
Actually is teacher give chance want, cos also not really accurate . HAHA.
After that, lesson as usual, after school, tot got art club.
End up go wait , den think don have, so went home alone. kinda lonely.
Reached home, use com & all.
Someone say i noisy in class seh, aizai. kpkb. nb.
Nevermind, If you think , im really Very noisy, den you speak louder loh.
Its impossible for me to be quiet . Mummy give birth to me with mouth,voice.
To talk, to shout , to laugh. not to zip it up & keep it shut (:
& When he's talking to me about this, i was like, akind of pissed off already,
As, my heart is broken at that time,
Bad news yeah, me & bff, remains as BFF.
I admit, i was really sad, i mean, still not over him yeah.
However, life goes on, i must forget about him . yes, ASAP.
I know i already did my best, its enough . What i can do, i already did.
Maybe it was all fate , just a crush , perhaps.
HAHAHA- can see im trying to act im very happy yeah.

Okay, forget it. This my life.
What else can i do? Nothing, obviously.

Let off the love, let go of everything that makes me reminds of you.
Thats the only thing i could do, as mission impossible yeah.
Wake up from my wonderful dream, & nightmare gonna come from today.
Gone , gone & gone, no love story , but sad story.
HAHAHA, GONE CASE!~

Still idiot , or not ?

2009-01-28T21:15:00.002+08:00

7-10years later ? (: Real baby?! :]

Today went to school as usual,
I was kinda late today, I saw idiot in the bus today, so happy man!.
But, somehow, things might have already changed.
After that, headed to school with audrey, waited for bilian at bus stop,
we rushed to school as we are going to be late in 1mins time,
Lesson's as usual, nothing much special today.
28th is a very nice date alrights .
But, nothing much special, anyway, happy that my art have completed 4boards! (:
Tomorrow got art club. hmmms, yawns.
Today was kinda pissed off. GARRRHHH. super unhappy.
After went home , bathe & prepare after that headed to cwp with mummy.

; Idiot still idiot?
I don't know what else could i do,
Everything seems turning bad , i felt so helpless now.
& basically, hopeless.
What should i do right now?
I wish , i wish, but, nothing seems turning out good.
Admit im waiting here .
But, i think he wants me to give up? ;;;;;
Nothing left to tell, i will just stay here,
If we really cmi, den i also cannot do anything what,
at least you could tell me first, instead of letting it drag on.
I know its hard to forget now, but, at least better than drag drag drag.
ily, you knew it too, but, you don't seems to care already.
haish.
Sad & inconsolable feeling.

2009-01-27T21:31:00.002+08:00

Love me without fear , Trust me without wondering ,
Love me without restriction, Want me without demand ,
Accept me , for who and how i am (:

Today, went to aunt's house at seng kang,
Thought of meeting fbf if i didn't go. But, end up still went,
Reached there, watch dvd's , eat , play around with cousins (:
A kind of fun yeah. Lots for joy & laughters .
& I miss idiot damn lot sia .
Hope tomorrow can take the same bus with him yeah.
I bet, i knew everything , Just want you guys to stay happy.
& I miss Bilian GF alot alot. HOHOHO.
schooling tomorrow already ,hees.
Anyway, i did my homeworks! :DDD
Hope tomorrow will be a good day for me & a lucky day for me to take same bus with him :)

I'm cryiing now?!!!!

2009-01-26T23:12:00.002+08:00

Tear's rolling down my cheeks now ..
I couldn't stop . I'm not happy, at all .
I love you so bad, but, everything seems not turning out good.
Maybe its another time when i have to watch you walk away?
CTMI - Close To Make It . But, still never make it, right?
I've been thinking through out,
You're the what i'm longing for, But, somehow...
I've no confidence .
Everything might just disappear in a seconds , hard to cherish.
Love is just a word, until someone can give it a definition.
I use to believe, you could. But, now, my mind is empty.
Seriously, My heart seems cracking .
I'm always the one who started everything, text you, chat with you on msn.
I ask myself, If i mean alot to you, you would have done this before i did.
My mind is gone, im spinning around, deep inside, my tears are drowned.
I'm losing breathe, what's happening ?

Just a word .
LOVE ; iloveyou.
I don't know if i should let go , cause, i still love you!
I don't know if i should give up, But, i still wanto try!
HAISH.
Silently dead .

HCNY! :D ; Imissoctopusbadly! )':

2009-01-26T17:35:00.007+08:00

Hello , Happy lunar new year , guys! (:
Yesterday night, went to bugis with my family, went to the temple yeah.
After that went to eat KFC, den headed home :D .
Today morning, as usual, missing him badly, don't wish to get off my bed.
After that rush to bathe & all, was busy trying clothes,
Thinking of which to wear , after that decide to wear the blue dress,
After that , make up , den prepare to go grandma house.
Reached, greetings & get the red packets,
After that,slackslack, watch tv, after that, headed home.
Edit pictures all . Kinda bored & tired.
& Did text for quite awhile with FBF !
He's a kind of GOOD (: hahaha x)

I got to say, He is never off my mind ,
Every single minutes & seconds, He is flashing through my mind.
For the time being, i guess i could only miss him .
He will be back today mid night, hope so.
Can't wait to text him ! Btw, happy that he could recieve my text (:
& Guess what? He's good enough to text me back , for at least once.
So sweet! OMG. I can't wait for him to come back.
I love him & yes, i really do. GRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.
=] , iloveyou, darling.
Be back soon alrights?! I'm waiting !~

{ 8.30pm}
GOSH, GOOD NEWS! TO ME!~
Octopus is back to sg!!! He just phoned me! (:
WOAHH. feel so happy right now! weeeeeeeeeee~ feel like flying. roars.
Okay, hope later can chat on phone with him x)
simply ; love him more than anything :D

; Girlfriend's , i miss you all , see ya soon alrights.
; BL gf, donno got dai shou xin for me anot, sure don have de, haha ):
imy lah. !

Well ; Do visit : www.roggiebloggie.blogspot.com (:

Its a best day ever & a sad day ever =X

2009-01-25T18:29:00.006+08:00

Hello people's ; Let me share my so called "Best day ever" .
Basically, Yesterday mid night, Rojak came to see my blog ,
He knew everything , He asked me to call him, So, i called him.
We was chatting happily, for a while, den he said he call me back later,
Around 1am, he called me back, He was suppose to sleep at that time ,
But, we continued chatted on phone till 3.02am . (:
I swear, it was a best day ever, i wish time would stop & never start tickling again.
He brightens my day , seriously, i'm crazy over him .
He's so so sweeeet alrights . Never be replaced :]
Okay, So, The "Saddest day ever" refers to , He have left s'pore few hours ago,
He'll be back on monday mid night = Tuesday . )'=
I miss him so so badly . ROAR. Well, don't think too much, I'm still Single :X
We spoke about feelings & all =) ,
0h, Darling , you said, Fate bought us together , you said , you believe something* :]
I hope its true alrights , I'll wait for you to come back , i can't wait to chat on phone with you,
Text you & take the same bus with you .
Don't fade away yeah, ily. thats all.
I love you more than words can tell .
I love you more than anything .
I believe , If fate bought us closer, of course, i hope we might be together some day,
I'm just looking forward to that day, you said, you'll make that move ,im waiting :]

; Today morning, when i wake up, don wish to get off my bed,
Have to admit, i thought everything was a dream ,
The first person i think of once i opened my eyes ,is rojak .
I've to say, i'm really in love with him , :)
After that, bathe & all, my aunt came over to fetch me & sis to grandma house.
Variety of foods of course, however, i picked simple noodle :D
After that, listening to music, texting with him .
Think later on at night will be out again yeah. Tired .

Hope everything won't change in the mean while ;
Sotong is still sotong ,
Will Octopus still Octopus ? (i hope will)
Darling !
ILOVEYOU;SUPERBIGTRUCKLOADS :}
Imy so so badly now.

Tag's replies :
Latest - Oldest :}

Ahyeen : Hello girlf:] , Thanks . ilyx3
Joleen : Hello sweetiee! , imyt & im not pretty ): hees, see you soon! :]
!Aiko;Charmian : Heehee. thanks , Happy CNY toos :D
Bilian : LOL. ji tao sian diao sia, the tag. Gahhh.
Yan'ism : LOL. Nono. sorry. (:
Xiner : Hello, link ya soon yeah =)
Peien : Yeah, haha, thanks :B Takecares~
Shuting : Erm, jiu shi break ler loh, i'm not sad, haha , thanks =D
XiaoJane : hello ,yeah , contact you soon . :}
Roger : HAHA. you're welcome :] ; im just too kind =D , jkjk, don faint*!
XiaoJane : Will add you up in msn too :P
Unknown : Idiot la, alvin tan, you cook the things also kns loh, at least mine is edible,
Your's can say, cmi, hahaha :D , you wanto vomit ah? i give you plasticbag & tissue lor :D
Kiriiya : haha, you saw right? Damn cute hor? the doraemon thingy, hahaha!
Roger : Haha, there, the doraemon! , don forget next year i still wanto see it on the table of your room hor, if not i will kill you up =P
Peien : Haha. I racial harmony mah, thats why malay, but, now single :D
Yan'ism : LOLS. don't be sad uhs, Move on yeah. cheers!

Darling ; Iloveyou , more than words could tell .
More than actions can show .
I can't live without you inside my heart ;
Awaiting love ... ily xD

I ♥ вaт мaи ' гσjaк ' вff (:

2009-01-24T20:44:00.003+08:00

Hello , All my readers :D , I'm here to blog again :]
Today, woke up around 11plus, Its kinda late yeah, den quickly went to bathe all.
As gonna go yishun with Grandma , Aunt , Sis & Cousins.
Went there, they already bought things, eating, After that, we eat & drink.
Den i bought a watch there :DDD , Weather is quite warm, couldn't stop sweating .
After that, headed back to woodlands, Causeway point-ed. :]
Went to walk walk lohs. After that, went home at 4plus pm.

; Darling .
I know you since 101208 .
At that time i feel i was fated to know you,
I know i've feelings for you even though we didn't meet.
I know now from everyone eyes ,is thinking that im very flirt & all.
But, the real thing is , i've liked him since december 10th.
Just that things went on & off. crushing coming here & there.
Mia , den come back, mia again, come back & so.
I finally get to take same bus with you .
I couldn't imagine when you sit beside me that day . OMFG.
It was crazy, & yesterday when you smiled to me, omg.
I feel like flying, you smile kills seriously. ily, i knew it.
I know , single is better , to you ah . to me too,
but, its only when i meet the wrong one.
You're the one who brightens me. You rock my life , darling.
I couldn't stop loving you .
Remember, I'll always love you & guess.
I'm waiting for you. darlinq :D
Everything you do, i like it.
Everything you told, i've never forget it.
Trust me ; I love you.
Say you love me too , please?
How i wish, you'll sound me to be your girlfee,
I know you want to be single, & i know you don't love me.
But, i loved you. If you really don't love me, simple text me & let me know okay?
I'll learn to let go. ilyily,vvm.
You were my Bat Man , Darling , Bff , Elmo , Rojak , Rojak's Twinny , EVERYTHING! :D
My heart craves for you.
I know, love is intricated.
But, i really love you, simply loves you. loves everything you do & everything you have.
ily. Fullstop. :]
Text me soon . darling . I'm waiting . & do remember to view : //♥ {Navigations on top}

2009-01-24T00:29:00.003+08:00

当我第一次见到你，我就想一步一步的靠近你。
我知道你跟你的女孩有多么的甜蜜，所以我紧紧守着你。

As long as you're happy , I'm happy with it too.
I know how happy you are with your girl , I'll be right behind to watch you (:
I'm sure, I'm over you, maybe a bit too not over you yet, But, I'll make it through.
Although , i feel sad , but, i know, i have to face the reality, plus,
We were simply impossible :DD , i knew, i accepted it due to failure of relationships.
{/E} ended .

Now, my heart seems seeking for someone close to me ,
He seems to be the one i've fallen for, since 1month ago , Just that, things went on & off.
How i wish, you will always be there & there start to mia for days .
I use to dream on , thinking if we could be together someday, but,
Again, mission impossible, I want to stay single for now? (:
Unless, you date me out during valentines day, WAH.
See, I'm day dreaming again yaw.
Just wishing , you to become 12TH. perhaps.
Well, because, i know we can go study together :DD.
Remember what you promised, we could go study together someday ,
:] ; Okay, It seems i'm talking to much already.
Just want to say :
I'll never give up, If i still want to try .
I'll never wipe my tears , If i still want to cry .
I'll never settle for a answer , If i still want to know .
I'll never denied i don't love him, If i really still love him (: } Rojak'

Today's love, Tomorrow's memories .
We seems so close, yet so far away,
Pull me close to you & say, you'll never let me go.
"Ily.Fullstop" , Remember?
Everything you said , i've never forget about it.
The text you sent, Is kept safely in my cell phone.
Because, i know, they are the reasons for my laughters & tears .
Once in a while, i will look through & found my tears rolling down my cheeks.
Its hard to get over you , when i even planned so much of things with you.
Darlinq. ily . Truckloads .

You smiled at me ; I was addicted to you .

2009-01-23T22:54:00.002+08:00

Hello , blogging again , Kinda late yeah,
Alrights, Today went to school as per normal .
Didn't bring my bagpack , as didn't intend to bring books due to CNY celebrations. (:
Today, i took the same bus with Rojak'BFF! OMG.
I texted him, as he was quite far away from me, but, i saw him still,
He asked, where am i? I said i was at the back, sitting right behide the door .
After awhile, he saw me, i was looking at him too, i was like, shy & smiled,
He smiled too, OMG. He's a killer, he's so hot. HAHA. (x
After that, when i reached interchange, he purposely came over quicklt & bang onto me.
Grrrr. Basket sia. haha, after that, headed to school, meet bilian GF at bus stop.
After that walk to school, do biometric, so & so.
Lesson's as usual today, FBF text me in the morning, tot he will be schooling today,
End up he sleep back as he've a MC. Grrr. Lazy right? hahaha.
Okay, after that, till concert time he text me back.
Concert performance's were awesome, Especially "Inject-O-Phunkers" .
OMGOMGOMG. They haven start performing, The claps & shouting already started.
After that, so & so, "Lao Yu Sheng" , haha, our class was horrid, throw to high den fly over the ground.Btw, i've been suspecting he have gf already, till today den i found out its true,
Hmm, i feel abit kind of sad & heartbroken, but, seriously, i'm over him ah,
So, To the "YOU" , Last long with your girlfee alrights (: , All the best! :]]]]
After school, took 1 round bus to causeway point with bilian GF,
Den went to buy make up thingy, after that, went B1, bought sushi,
den headed home, after reach home, preparing to go orchard,
so, bathe, make up and all, den went orchard with my sister loh.
I regretted wearing my everlast shoe, it hurts my leg badly, grrrr..
Can't even walk properly after an hour. )= , anw, bought a new shoe for CNY (:
Reached home around 10.30pm yeah. :]

; A chance for love is so unplanned .
If you love me, let me know ; If not gently let me go.

BYEEEEEE.
; Fuck th love upside down okays?! ((((:

Its because , L-O-V-E went wrong (:

2009-01-22T20:14:00.003+08:00

Hello readers , I'm back to blogging now.
Basically just changed new blog skin & song.
Today extremely sucks to the core .
Early in the morning, bused to school, yeaps, i saw him today,
I was like, haish, How to face him? Somehow,
In class, many things happened, It seems all my fault,
They were blaming me, Please don't put the blame on me, i didn't know things turn out like this ):
A.S ? I did feel it too, i was like, irritated & frustrated too. But, what can i say?
It seems all caused by me ; I feel so pathetic, they(s) say he seems pathetic ,
Or acting as if he's pathetic, actually, im the one who is really feeling pathetic!
Today mood wasn't that good, i burst out crying too, it seems all my fault, i feel bad! )=
This morning PE, 2.4km run again, so tired loh. Failed again.
TMD, Gahhhhh!/ i feel so much of stress nowadays ,
Lesson's as usual, Geog time, Asked ms pearlyn for lolipop.
English time, Ms Matthew said she won't be teaching 4n2 anymore,
I was like, a kind of sad & sian diao. Haish. What to do?
Hmmms, after school, went to Mac to buy burger home. weeeeets.~
Was texting with FBF, My phone eventually low batt-ed . OMG.
But, somehow, able to listen to music when the batt is at the lowest point till i reach home & charge.

; Love has no boundaries (:
Love is just a word, without someone who can give it definition .
I said, I want to have a chinese boyfriend next, unless its BFF.
I still don't know can i make it or not, hope can ? (:
& I'm super in love with my blog song lah. :)
Anyway, gotto go & do my homework already.

Hoping : BFF,FBF&ACB faster recover ! :DDDDD

& You, be back normal lahs.

BYE.
P/S photo's will be uploaded tomorrow or soon (:

Awwwws , Vip's was sick.

2009-01-21T20:36:00.003+08:00

Hello, blogging again,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ROGER GOH!
Currently at Roger Goh de house.
Today went to school as usual,
wait for bilian GF at bus stop, after that headed to school.
Lesson's as usual today , art lesson was struggling with my work..
Well, after school went to woodland centre to buy NF skirt
after that wait for 911 home, reach home, bathe & prepare to go roger house.
Before going, went to cwp to get him a present,i spent more than 30mins searching for it.
Just now also saw bilian GF at cwp , hohohos.
After i reach his house area, nick all bluff me that 788C is rogers block,
but, i remember is B, end up, still get tricked by them ,TMD. ):
After reach, give him th present , after that, go fried the fries & donno what prawn.
Den eat, den now some people go buy KFC, well, a idiot beside me now,
Kaypo-ing (: Thats the b'day boy norhs.
haha. Xisheng complain that th fries not nice & not salty enough! GAHHHH./
I swear, it had been a very very long time ever since i mixed up with chinese guys.
HAHA. Hope i will be back sooooooooooooooooooon! (:

; Rojak ' BFF is sick, Hope he faster recover & can meet soon.
; Apiz FBF injured his arm, hope he can faster recover as well :D

Alrights, They kpkb me already, tio bully again.
GAHHHHHHH :/
BYEEEEEEEEE.~

2009-01-20T23:20:00.001+08:00

Oh, Darling .
Faster recover alrights, imissyou! :]
See you in school soon,
Faster recover, Can't wait to joke with you .
Lots of lots of care & concern's yeah.
Godblessyou.

'Better in time . (:

2009-01-20T21:59:00.005+08:00

Hello readers,quite a late post tonight,
Basically, everything is as usual today,
Nothing special to mention.
Today, I'm back to my Single life , i feel so relaxed~!
I was the one at fault, Sincerely apologize to you, I'm so sorry.
It wasn't what i wanted too.
Feeling stands everything, i know the feeling isn't right,
And i know i can't make it right, so, i must let it go.
Its not because i like someone else or because of E,
Its because of myself, my personal feelings, it wasn't right,
I know i won't be able to make it right, so, what for?
I know i was really bad, i feel very guilty,
But , there's nothing else i could do, love can't be forced, so,
I hope you understand, I've my own reasons for it,
If you were me , you will also let go,
You would also knew, you can't make it.
So, seriously, im sorry . You can find someone better , i'm sure.
I'm so sorry, Sufiyan classmate. ):
I'M SORRY!

; I preferred my single life now,
I feel so relaxed, like a hard rock falls from my heart.
I wish, we could still be friends.
& From now, i don't wanto put so much into finding boyfriend,
I shall stay single for a period of time . I'm not ready for r/s YET.
Girlfriends are now my first priority .
Nothing else matters, accept those on my 'TRUCKLOADS' list.

Tag's replies here :
Passerby : I downloaded the latest one, if i'm not wrong is 3 or 3. something,
You click the filter ,den think got 1 is link to illusion . i used illusion , haha &
I'm not pretty yaeh.
Passerbyx3 : I'm not pretty, Think so, like lesser interests or totally no interests
in chinese guy now . haha.
XiaoJane : Will link soon.
Peien: Thanks for tagging (:
Shuting : Break liaos.
Audrey : Yo saisai, thanks for tagging (: haha, ok

Fifth day, I'm very stress with personal feelings )'=

2009-01-19T20:20:00.005+08:00

Hello, back to blogging today, i wasn't in really good mood right now.
Today went to school as usual, i saw bff in the same bus with me, at first,
i saw him, pretending i didn't see him, i think he saw me, after that he walks towards,
he sit beside me, texted me. i feel like, wow. great. happy.joyful,wonderful..
Well, today kinda late for school yeah, waited for bilian GF at bus stop.
after that walk to school, go hall for assembly, kinda bored yeah.
Lesson's as usual, shared cookie with hubby today, as usual, classmate say 'I WANT!'
Gahhhhh/ , After that chem lesson, shared cookie with hubby at lab :D
Well, after that, lunch time , eat together with hubby, chit chat & all.
After school, went for dance practice, kind of restless, i was too tired for everything.
& I GOT TO SAY, I CAN'T COPE WITH MY MATHS & ENGLISH.
Today, Raynard fainted )'= , all of us was super worry,
i feel heart aching! GRRR. After that, his mummy came to school & pick him up,
Bilian, audrey & I rush out of school to find taxi! , i hope he'll recover soon!.
After dance, went to causeway point alone, buy a jumpersuit, after that bought glue for fake eyelash. den headed home, btw, say azrill yeah. said ,HI. haha.

; I'm sorry hubby,
I can't make my feelings right now.
My mind is full of stressful things, you, he & him. OMFG.
I don't believe it, pathetical.
Alrights , Do remember what you promise yeah,
& please don't treat me so well, i'm really afraid.
Ily. thank you very much for understanding,
I'll always be there when you need me (:

Tags replies here :
Shuting - HAHA :DDD
Passerby - I edit through Photoscape.
!Aiko ; CHARMIAN ♥ - Haha, Thanks :D
Passerby - Hmm, well, i don't look pretty, i look ugly yeah, well,
I also don't know why i like malay guys instead of chinese . Maybe is like,
once you like a malay, hard to like chinese again? haha. im not sure too. ):

Fourth day , how whole heartedly ..

2009-01-18T19:45:00.002+08:00

Today , woke up early at 4.30am , went to bathe , super cold yeah.
After that , preparing to meet bilian at RC.
After that, took the bus to sembawang CC, have Nasi Lemak as breakfirst =D
After that, slack slack, till around 9, start work! (:
Basically, BilianGF & Me is like, standing at the entrance, guiding people
who are collecting their Edusave award / bursary :BBBB
Okay, Gotto say something . I saw a VERY HOT GUY!
The guy which everytime i pass by him, i couldn't stop staring & say "Hot,hot,hot....."
My eyes couldn't stop staring at him, But, my heart is SUFIYAN alrights.
After that, bring cakes, kueh's, apples home, Basically, they gave, so , all will get .
After that, bilian's dad sent me home, yeahyeah, after that, slack awhile,
& went to bathe.After that, ask hubby to call me, den meet him at my house here,
Sry hubby, cos actually tot gonna go cwp, but, i was too tired.
After that, do abit homework, den chit chat with hubby already,
I cried, once in a while im like this , EMO, well, I'm not having period alrights!~ :D
Hmmms, okay, the reason i cried, its because,
I don't know whats on my mind, my heart,
Its like, i love hubby, i miss E. )'=
E is like, memories ,
Hubby is like, what i'm yearning for.
So, is it ...

I'm sorry hubby, i know you are like, totally stunt.
But, i must say, hubby is the best.
He is the only one who treated me so dearly even when i cried while he donno anything.
He dote me, he hugged me, he didn't keep asking why?
He quitely stay beside me, wipe my tears, hug me, dote me.
I swear, He's the only guy who ever treat me this way, i like him!~
Seriously, He's the first one . :} , but, the more he treat me well,
The more i'm afraid to hurt him )'= , i hope i won't .
Honestly speaking, Sufiyan , He is a very good boyfriend.
Its not that because i'm with him now, so , i praised him.
Seriously, I don't really know him well,
I first stead with him, i didn't think of how long can we last,
didn't think of where to go during valentines & all, cos i believe,
The higher the hope, the greatest the disappointment.
He seems like, already planned things well,
He's really great man! I'll never forget how well he treated me ... 'Bby, Don't cry' , awwws.
So sweeeeeeeeeeeeet! If you were me, i bet you have fallen for him! =]
Okay, stop praising him, If not later he see my blog den can show off. haha.
Well, have quite a fun day with hubby today,
I hope feeling won't go up & down again,
Hubby promised me make me totally forget about E.
We set a promise, even talking about married, LAUGH OUT LOUD!.
Well, i didn't think too much yeah! :]

Okay,

Hubby ;
Thanks for being there when i need you most,
Thanks for being understanding,
The way you treat me when i cry, is totally different from any other guys,
You're the greatest , hubby. ily. (:
& I'm sorry if i hurted you in any way yeah. il0vey0u.

Third day ; How lovely .

2009-01-17T20:35:00.004+08:00

Hello baby . I'm blogging again , (Active blogger) yeah :D
Today have quite a number of photo's uploaded ,
Well, Today i woke up around 10plus am, so washed up & texted hubby,
He's still sleeping, haha, i onlined, till around 11plus , he sign in . *laughs*
* ' Don't know who say he will wake up around 9am want , HAHA' *
After that, chit chat, around 12.45pm, preparing to bathe & all,
Hubby cycle to my house area, i waited for him at block 882 , bench.
After awhile, he reached, we slacked there for . around 4hours.
Basically, of course, 2people world & chit chatting & bullying him :)
After that went over to shell's 7eleven , buy drinks & cookie . :D
Went over block 876 slack , i bought myself premium milk tea,
erm, the taste is like, very milky. prefered the one selling in our school, handmade (:
Today is like, quite windy, my hair just couldn't stop flying like crazy =X
Well, hubby ask to take photo , so, we took quite a number of pics today :DD
I edited for around 45mins or more =X , haha.
Den hubby ask to sent him the photos :] ,
Have a nice & wonderful day with hubby today,
Have to thanks hubby for coming over my house area,
actually wanted to go orchard today, but, was like, a kind of lazy =X

; Hubby,
Thanks for the happiness you gave,
Appreciated , You always make me smile,
You are so cute man! can't stand your cuteness perhaps. :}
BUT, BUT, I'm cuter than you okay :XX
I really hope, we could last long &
i hope the love will become stronger after day pass by.
Thank you for everything yeah, ilyily x3

Second day (:

2009-01-16T20:15:00.002+08:00

Hubby edit's , Thanks hubby :B
Me with Geek spec's :DD
He simply looks like Nelson Hoon , my old flame :D
Hello , I'm here to blog again :D
Today went to school as usual, took the same bus with rojak BFF :]
But, he didn't saw me, i guess.
After that, bused to school, meet bilian GF at bus stop,
after that headed to school, do biometric & went canteen to buy drink :D
After that went to parade square, wasn't doing maths, as i didn't bring my text book.
After that, lesson's as usual, chemisty lesson sat with hubby.
After that chinese, hubby help me carry bag, & accompany me to classroom area.
HE SO SWEET LAH, I LOVE HIM SUPER DUPER HYPER MUCH :D
I like the way he treat me, like, even help me carry my bag somemore so heavy -____-"
Thanks alot hubby. (:
After that, lesson's as usual, a kind of tired & restless today,
weather turning cooler & cooler. Today morning, don wish to get off my bed yeah,
I was like freezing, covering myself tightly with blanket. so bloodyhell cold. :X
Well, after school, went for dance practice, tired leh.
Was trying to find out if someone got steady already not, ask around,
they like, don even know that someone at all, hahaha. pretty lame.

; A chance for love is so unplanned ' , a tear rolls down my cheeks today.
When i listened to the song "When you're gone" , i hate this feeling yeah. :X

Hubby :
Thank you for everything you've done to make me happy.
I really appreciate it.
I hope we could last long , alot of things spreading,
I don't know which to believe, maybe just wait & see ? :l
I wish, it wasn't true yeah. somehow, hubby meants alot to me,
Don't snatch him away please, or i'll start bleeding )'=

First day :}

2009-01-15T20:03:00.003+08:00

Hello hello, blogging again.
Basically, today woke up at 5.25am, faster went to prepare for school,
seriously, nowadays weather is cold ..
I bathe as usual this morning, but, today is much colder than usual days.
I was shivering like hell. After bathe, after go prepare, wear contact lens,
tie my hair, den prepare to meet audrey at bus stop,
Guess what? I saw rojak BFF in bus today,
he didn't saw me, i saw him when i drop down the bus at interchange.
I find its like, some sort of fate? like, always i want to get in same bus with him,
& when i have my hubby, den i get to board same bus with bff. lawls.
Hmms, when i reached the school first bus stop,
from th bus, i could see hubby! he's playing his guitar in the canteen.
Texted him , told him i saw him, haha, after that, wait for bilian GF.
Den went to school, do biometric, sit at parade square,
First period is PE. hubby & i planned what to wear yesterday. roars.
So unlucky, today we went for 2.4km run, run with hubby also, haha.
reached arond 20mins plus plus. we were simply slacking yeah.
After that lesson's as per-normal, today i was somehow jealous heh. haha . nvm.
Last period, PS. we was like, sit together loh. E knows i stead with hubby already.
He seems different, his facial expression totally changed. i donno why.
But, guess its okay to him, cos he've got the sec 1's yeah.
haha, after school, hubby, bilian gf & me went library.
went to study & read books, awhile later jordan came to join us.
after that went void deck area to slack.
Den went home around 6plus, i reached home at 7 plus.

; I enjoy my day with hubby today . (:
I hope we could last yeah.
He was my dream come true, the romeo i'm looking for , perhaps.
Hope the love wasn't a lie or something lohs.
Cos, i seriously love him .
Never wanna let the feelings fade or let him leave me , haha.
I LOVE HUBBY! ♥

I LOVE YOU . BABY! =)

2009-01-14T22:45:00.002+08:00

140109 ; 8.51pm .
This is my promises to you ' -

: I won't go flirt with other guys .
: I won't fall in love with other guys .
: I won't let the feelings fade away .
: I will cherish you .
: I will treat you the best i can ever do.
: I will be faithful towards you.
: I will do all things that will make you happy & not angry nor sad.
: I will try my very best not to show you attitudes .
: I will control my temper & don't quarell with you.
: I will try not to be too sensitive, eg, you talk with girl den i show attitude etc.
: I will try not to get jealous easily.
& I will be the one , who will stays by your side no matter what happens.

I hope, you won't leave me yeah.
Cos i love you, you know.
I just want us to last long long .
I'm not gonna let others ppl affect us.
I don't care what they say alrights.
I LOVE BABY, SUFIYAN.
ILYILYILY.

; Last long alrights? ILOVEYOU.

I love th "Nabei" ; {S}

2009-01-14T20:02:00.003+08:00

Personality of me ; I'm one of the I's :D

-Photo's taken today, except for sufiyan's pic, snap-shoted yesterday.

I'm afraid , i love you . ; I wish you love me too . Haish.
Today went to school as per-normal.
As usual, meet bilian GF at bus stop. Today abit kind of restless.
My mood wasn't good, due to yesterday night. something's bothering me.
I hate this feelings, Hate to feel im in love with someone who don't feel the same.
Everything's like , tearing apart. I want to be happy. can i ?

I have alot of homework that's undone . damn it.
I was kinda stress nowadays .
I'm always being impulsive. i don't know why yeah.
I'm emotional , when i like someone, i will tell him .
When i know, he won't like me, i will try to walk away.
Even though its hard, i will try to walk away.
I just want someone ,

I want a guy who calls me beautiful instead of hot,
who calls me back when i hang up on him,
who will lies under the star and listen to my heart beat
or will stay awake just to watch me sleep
i'll wait for the boy which kisses my forehead,
who wants to show me off to the world when i'm in sweats
who holds my hands infront of his friends,
who thinks i'm just as pretty without my make ups on,
one who is constantly reminding me of how much he cares,
and how lucky he is to have me ;
the one who turn to his friends and say " Thats her"

Well, 1pm onwards got programme again,
Today is talking about personality ,
I feel pathetic, cos i was like, lose while playing games.
Seriously pathetic loh. )': .
Emo day today, heart aching . //
Somehow, i scared i have fallen in love again, it hurts always.
Just standing here & watch you walk away. it hurts.
I want to forget about you , can i?
However, i wish you would tell me, you like me too.
I wish you would sound me to be your girlfee.
But, i was thinking too much, mission impossible thingy yeah.
Gahh, Face the reality, girl! :'(

; Anyway, anyone want to go library study tomorrow ?
After school, which is after 4pm . Kinda boring.
Go library study ah :)

! I WANTO FORGET YOU ! "Nabei" . :X

Is it a start of something new&happy , or sadness ahead ?

2009-01-13T19:27:00.003+08:00

Hello hello , today went to school as per-normal.
Meet audrey at bus stop, we were in beetoven's house tee :D
After that, rush to meet bilian, i was kinda late, morning run has started.shyt.
Lesson's as per-normal today, well, 1pm onwards got progamme, yeahyeah.
kinda fun yeah. i enjoyed, but, got 1 game today, blindfold myself,
the game like stupid sia, my group ppl never shout to let me know which directions.
zzz. so, our group lose. grrr.
Mustaqin bully me, pinch me till gonna blue black. grrr.
Think he's worser. haha. i pinch more harder x)
Sufiyan ; Also another big bully. haha. fun lahs :X
snap shot him today, but, lazy to put the pic in com ley.haha.
Bff aka twinny aka rojak , text me today. haha x)
-Hope he can faster recover .

; Is it a start of something new?
Is in a crush or in love?
OMG. I scared i liked you,
Someone, same school , same age, same ----- (:
hahaha. I'm someone who's being Racial Harmony .
Feel like having a bf . & wish to be with you??!
OMG.
Dead already . However, it might be just a crush or something yaeh.
Don't dare to think to much, unless, you sound me about you feeling th same.
haha. alrights.

- Someone texted me today,
Well, all i wanto say is :
I meant what i said .
Friendship remains, not more than that,
I'm sorry if im like, so fucked up.
But, feelings stands everything,
I believe, we're mission impossible.
& i think i like someone . so so sorry .

; bye loves.

Tag's replies :
Jug : Hello dummie (:
Ahyeen : Heeheehs, this song nice sial. :]
Shuting : Ty for tagging.
Peien : LOL. i not chio lah.-_____-" LOL. :X
Shuqi : Relinked :)

Its like , i'm being envy towards those who have sweet boyfriends.

2009-01-12T21:11:00.002+08:00

Hello , I'm back to blogging again.
This morning woke up late, after that bathe & faster prepare to school.
I think i was at bus stop around 7am.
Was rushing to school, meet bilian GF at bus stop,
walked to school, did our biomatric. after that , go hall for assembly.
After that, lesson's as per-normal, nothing special.
After school, went for dance practice in the hall.
So tiring, as , monday are always sleepy yeah.

; Its like, i don't know how to explain my feelings for you(s).
Towards twinny, is like, yeah, we were just friends. & it remains.
Towards E, is like, i don't know to really explain it.
When i look at you, i feel like, im falling in love with you,
The love is still there, i guess.
But, we both know, its no more lahs, i have to face the reality.
I must make it through.
I wish to set my heart free,
I hope i could meet my mr right soon yeah. :}

A kind of feeling ; my heart seems cracking.

2009-01-11T12:57:00.009+08:00

010108
Hello there, Morning i woke up around 4.40am ,
Quickly rush to bathe & preparing to go to school as we've got performance.
Modern dancer's are told to meet around 6.30 sharp in the Mpr.
The day before we've already booked the right corner to get our make up done.
Firstly, we've to put our own foundation, after that, Ms Pearlyn help us to draw eye liner.
After that Amira help to do my hair , Xueting help to spray my hair.
After that Mrs Shamar help to put on eye shadow, i was the first tester!!! .
After that, Ms pearlyn help to put glue & sticks gold coloured glitters on my eye lid.
After that, Azhar help me with the blusher . After that, i put lip stick & Mascara myself :D
&& I'm all done. Start warming up & practice the steps.
We took afew group photo's too :D
I think i forget 1 step during the performance. OMG.
Luckily i was standing at the back, hope i manage to hide yeeah.
After that, went to our booth while watch the uniform group drills.
Ncc is so awesome. OMG. Their commands is loud & clear loh!
Haha, but, some talk in between want, still smile also. HAHA.
I think Ncc is the best among the uniform groups.
but, I'm not criticizing other uniform groups ah, they were great too.
I was carring a fake baby around, it was the tribal syf dance baby!
It was CK. when he was a baby. Junxian & peoples keep wanto snatch it away.
I LOVE BABY!omgomg. After that, went home alone.
I shopped awhile at cwp, bought eye shadow & fake lash for myself :D
After that, homed & texted with ahyeen.
We decided to swim at east coast :) , so, i quickly pick the shirt i wanna wear,
Pack my bag & rush to bathe, meet her around 2.30 at interchange.
After that went to metro, den went down to mac & bought cheese burger,
den headed to sweet talk & bought bubble tea.
Soon, we walk down interchange & queue up for bus 966.
Stupid couple made us feel that we were pathetic.
Well, nevermind, Friends last, couple don't :]
Reached there, walking for very long time as the pit was so far away, after that,
find perfect place to swim, i couldn't tolerate the dirty-ness.
Sands went in our shirts & pants, EEEEEEKS. i hate it.
Quickly get off the water & wanting to go to bathe.
Before that camwhored too :D
We bathe & change very long. after that, making up .
I think we were in the toilet for more that 1hour 30mins.
We still saw a couple when the girl looks older & she's taller than the guy,
it seems like big sister & small brother relationship.
yes, of course, i was envy. ):
After that, Went to pit, haziqah is there already,
Rais , Rafi,Khairul & izhwan too. After awhile, shaz came with a guy.
err, basically ex-silian. so, after that, tried to sabo haziqah. :)
So & so, went back around 10plus. walk to bus stop,
i think we board bus around 11plus.
Reached home at 12plus, so tiring.
Doze off in the bus, listening to music, thinking of what to do . :l

That's all for 100108.
& of course, thanks to haziqah who invited me to her bbq'.
'HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY,BYTCH!:D'

Will update tonight :D ,

Hello hello , I'm back to update yeah.
Today went to amk hub with my sister, went there to buy new year clothes yeah.
I bought a top at pepper plus , after that, headed to Jurong point ,
my mum board train at woodlands, 3 of us went to jurong point to shop.
We went to eat at the food court, as, we seems starving . hahaha.
after that, walk walk, den around 7 plus, headed back woodlands,
they went mila to buy their clothes, after that , shop around, bought my hairdye.
& dyed back my hair again, i hate it lah, stinks.
& Just finish my English homework.

; I was thinking , since yesterday went i bused back to woodlands from east coast.
I seems to be the one who is starting first move, ( Zi zuo duo qing) .
We were just best friends, i mean, online best friends perhaps.
I'm not sure, if im in love , i just know, everytime i think of you,
i wish you would text me, or even chat with me on msn when you saw me onlined.
But, you didn't . I'm always the one who first start a conversation with you, text you & all.
I feel so pathetic. & I don't want to do this anymore.
I just want to forget you & E. thats all.
I don't want to have 2guys in my mind now.
I don't want any to be in my heart for the mean while lah. ):
This year, is a hard year. I should prepare myself for 'N' level already,
not gonna talk about L-O-V-E. but, i know i can't.
Its like, no love = no life. haish.
I will get over you(s) .
I want my heart to stay away from pains .
I'll not ever start a conversation with you first, unless , i have things to ask/say.
Except hello & all . I won't text you unless i saw you somewhere, or you're sick ,
i'll text to care . other's , i won't.
No matter how much i feel like texting you(s) , i won't .
You made me wanto forget E, but, is like, i think i'm the one thinking much.
I expect too much from you, but, somehow, we're just simple strangers.
I hate my life now.
I LOVE NOONE. :D

One week ... I should have letted go by now.

2009-01-09T21:12:00.002+08:00

Hello everyone, blogging again.
My eyes hurts, like, so damn painful , i don't know why .
Well, Today is as usual, the only unlucky thing is ,
i got caught because of coloured hair , i have already dyed back before school reopen.
Then now must waste money to buy hair dye again, wtf.
Anyway, tomorrow is CCA Promotion day . Have to perform tomorrow,
For sure got stage fright, as , its like, positioning at front sia.
OMG. Today's dance practice is god damn tiring sia.
Was texting with bff,Rojak's twinny today :] , talking about the past things (Rojak). haish.
I really regretted for the decision i made last time,
I wish , time could be rewinded, cause' he's the only i eventually wanted .
Anyway, he's sick now. wtf.
I hope he could recover fast , cos, he's now like, feeling so miserable.
FASTER RECOVER, PLEASE PLEASE. :(

; Hope tomorrow will be fun.
East coast tomorrow :)

Sixth day, seems close to recover. :]

2009-01-08T20:32:00.004+08:00

Hello, back to blogging again.
Basically, today is a very super duper suay day.
• First period, PE. Took height & weight , run 1.6km .
• That cramp is bloody hell killing me.
• Mood is swinging like hell.
• Went to orchard after school.
• Accompanied audrey & bilian to extent their hair.
• Shop around and bought hot pink beads bracelet .
• Bought my favourite famous amos cookie home.
• Trained home & reached around 8pm.
• Texted with bff .
• Bytch invited me somewhere , haha. but, not sure if can make it.

; Perhaps , He is making me happy daily.
Ever since he came back, he have never failed to make me smile.
I prefered the way we text, say what i want , joke around.
When i need him, he's always there.
I was first fated to know him .
Maybe next time can go study together with him yeah. :}
Towards another him, i know its hopeless.
I know he always break me into pieces, i know we won't ever be back again.
& I'm not that stupid to let you break me again,
i've learned my lesson's , you hurt me twice, serve me right :l
So, i must face the reality, although its hard to totally forget him now,
but,but, th present he* will lead me to a rainbow world.
He is eventually the one in the first place .
- A chance for love is so unplanned :] ; iloveyouuuuuuuuu:)

Th fifth day, going through...

2009-01-07T19:52:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HAZIQAH BYTCH!
; Miracles appeared yeah ? :) , good luck! ;]

Hello , blogging again :]
Today went to school as per-normal.
First 5 periods is art, colouring & painting my art piece.
After that, lesson's as usual.
Last 4 periods, relieve teacher came in, jitao sian.
We went over to 4n1 class room, cooling sia, air con!
Too bad our class air con is spoiled. ):
; Yesterday night, was chatting online with haziqah bytch & BFF.
We talked through things, after talking to bff, i was happy.
I feel like, suddenly relaxed when i knew the truth lo.
He is once again alive. yeahyeah. so happy cans.
After school, went for dance, kinda tired.
Alot of homeworks today sia,. nvm. work hard.
I WANTO GO SEC 5N1 LEH! :DDDD

Alrights . all i have to say today.
; Learning how to let go of you,
half way through, no matter how hard it is, i will make it.
will stop doing those cmi things , like, texting you & stuffs.
BFF will lead me out of that piece of darkness life.
HE'S MY BEST BEST BEST FRIEND FOREVER :D

& lastly .
Haziqah, bytch aka gf .
Hey, bytch, happy birthday yeah.
May all your wishes come true.
No matter what,i'll always be there for you,
share secrets of us. ilyilyily! :D

Its the forth day, how terrible it is man! GOSH.

2009-01-06T21:06:00.002+08:00

Hello . Blogging again yeah.
Basically, today was a bad bad day for me . )=
& Today is the fourth day , 060109, a nice date, yet, a terrible day.
I think i'm having fever, cos yesterday in school already have abit of fever.
Today still feeling myself warm yeah.
Lesson's as per-normal, tomorrow gonna bring alot alot of books & stuffs .
Today's physic class was fun. standing up quiz, all of us panic.
All of us don't wish to be the last man standing, wahaha.
Luckily i get to sit down, i answered & correct, wahaha. (:
Today's rehearsal is CMI . ; luckily inject-o-punk end with a nice dance,
&& we didn't get scolded, wahaha. i'm just too tired for everything.
Fourth day already, why my mind still thinks of him?
I bet i was abit mad because of him,
his smile always brightens my day .
everything he does, caught my attention.
I tried to look away, but, most of the time i failed.
I don't know why, i just want to remind myself,
If he is mine, no matter what, he will always be mine,
If he aren't mine, no matter how much i want him, he will never be mine.
What can i do? Be his guardian angel ah? lols. haish.
Maybe, pretend as if i don't care, but, in my heart, i really do care.

; Haziqah ,
I'm here wishing you all the best for your perfect birthday present yeah.
No matter what, i'm always here for you , being a listen ear.
Be there when you need me yaw, love you, bytch :D

Its the third day my dear ; imh)':

2009-01-05T19:09:00.003+08:00

Hello, blogging again .
Basically, today didn't meet audrey, went to school myself,
saw him queuing up at the bus lane, i was like, pretending i didn't saw him.
Bused to school, waited for bilian at bus stop. after that go do biometric & buy drink,
after that go hall for assembly, kinda boring yeah,
Lesson's as usual, very tired because school ends at 4pm ):
Anyway, time table is out, thanks to mustaqin, cos i asked him to write the time table
for me & he really did. lol. tyvvm.
After that lunch, eat, den go for maths , after that mother tongue.
after that, went to change,modern dance practice again. haish.
I'm just far too tired. hmmms, tml got rehearsal seh , tired lahs. :X

; You caught my attention still.
I tried not to stare but, i did .
When you tried to disturb me, i really did laugh,
& i know, it will be harder for me to forget about you.
I've been a fool for twice & never gonna be a fool for the third time.
I really wonder what i am to you for now.
I still love you, & i don't know why . )':

Its the second day guys :]

2009-01-04T21:50:00.003+08:00

Hello dear , back to blogging again :]
Today went to orchard again, wanted to get new year clothes,
But, none is suitable , after that went to crystal jade to have dinner,
after that, bought famous amos cookie from the actual shop, wahhh!~
Damn nice okay! (: , Well, schooling tomorrow already , sighs.
Gonna bring my bagpack, gonna bring pe shirts, gonna study, gonna dance.
Gonna see him* ! )'= , nevermind, i can make it , cos i've friends with me.
I promise, no matter what he do, he will never get to draw my attention :0

; New truckloads member,
Fake boyfriend, check it out yeah :)

'There's so much i can't say,
Feeling stands everything yeah,
My heart is still E. & i don't know why,
i'm now trying my very best for forget E.
& Setting new target perhaps? :]
Someone in class? or chinese guy? (: HEEHEEHS.
NONONO. single is the best of all . ;]]

: Bilian GF .
Ermm, i don't know what had happen for you to change your decision,
but, hope to talk about this tomorrow, don't be sad,
cos, i'm here for you , be your listen ear, be advisor. (:
Cheer up. x) We could stay single together. :DDDD

' No boys = Good life :B '

Its the first day guys (:

2009-01-03T23:10:00.002+08:00

Hello , blogging again .
Firstly, HAPPY BIRTHDAY, MARIS(sis) .
Today, tot will rot at home, but, end up went out with my sister, euson,regina & ai ting.
Went to eat ljs at cwp, after that train to orchard, went to shop, after that around 5,
went to slack at mos burger, after that, walk walk, around 6plus, headed back woodlands,
I'm too kind to let my seat to a mother with a baby (:
The baby damn cute ok, when he leaving, he gave goodbye kiss, 'Flying',
wahh, cool, after that went to cwp shop shop, bought a dress.
After that, home sweet home ,

; Perhaps, i did think of him today,
& i know i shouldn't think anymore )': ,
I feel like crying, but, tears just don't wanto come out,
maybe its because, my heart knows, i shouldn't cry for him already,
I can forget him (: , intended to change target ;D.

; Is it you? ...

Over & over again )'=

2009-01-02T21:55:00.002+08:00

Hello dear ,
I'm single on 020109 , 9.38pm .
He broke me, over & over again,
Yes, i cried, i'm sad, but, i'm not gonna let him break me.
Its the second time, i should have predicted this would happen,
just that i'm finding excuses for him, i was wrong.
I shouldn't have believed in his words, i feel regret.
But, its okay .
Love is just a word, as what they say,
I haven find someone who can prove me :]
Maybe i would go search for the right one soon?
Or maybe got fate, he would find me (: ?
Or, i go set target ?

Whatever it is, i just want to say,
I've truly loved you, but, its all gone by now,
I should have know, we wouldn't last.
Forget about it, the stupid & idiotic love .
Life goes on, i'll make sure you regret someday perhaps? :}}}}

; NEW LIFE LOH. SINGLE.SONGBO.
ihatehim )'=

What a tiring day .

2009-01-02T20:04:00.002+08:00

Hello, blogging today,
Today is the first day of school, bie text me this morning, weeeeets~.
Basically, woke up at 5.30am as usual, bathe & all, meet audrey 6.30am at bus stop,
bused to school, meet bilian GF at bus stop, she was early. hahaha.
After reach school, go canteen buy drink norh, after that, went up to hall.
assembly again, && of course, time for principle to talk the same thing for the fourth time.
I was pretty unlucky today, firstly, went to school, my string get caught,
nvm,escape, in hall, nose stud was ask to take out )=, grrrr,
after that, go back class, shirt get caught again. hais. zzzzzZZZZzz.
After that, lesson's loh. kinda boring & tired. && last min were told there were dance today,
omg, after school, quickly rush home to change, wanted to bathe first,
but, we was late, very very late, went for dance, after that, go cwp print photos x)
Homed around 6.45pm , kinda tireddd.
By the way, next week scheduled totally full,
Mon- Dance Practice .
Tues-Sec 1 orientation rehearsal .
Wednesday- Dance practice ; 4-6pm
Friday- Dance practice ; 4-6pm
Saturday- Sec 1 orientation day .
2nd april - Go nus for syf blocking.
March holiday - Syf camp .
Next week, i'll only be free on thurs & sun, finally can relax abit,
Today's training was tiring , doing blocking for sec 1 orientation ,
Kinda paiseh, cos 1 of the steps i must stand infront -_____-"
Well, teacher already decided what we could wear during next sat performance x)

; He smiled to me today,
I was addicted to him once again , i love him & yes, i really do .
I was so glad that he text me this morning, i smiled . :]
I wish, we could faster start talking again, i miss the voice of his.
He's my heart, my soul, my everything :}
Bie, i hope it all never fades away .
Waiting for you to reply the text i sent ):
I really really love you, my dear .

Its tomorrow , my dear =))))

2009-01-01T20:22:00.002+08:00

Hello, back to blogging already,
can't wait for tomorrow, school's gonna reopen !!! ROARS.
Today, woke up at 11plus, if i'm not wrong, wash up, & i feel so hungry,
dad bought breakfirst, yeahhh!, eat & use com as usual.
Around 4plus, dyed my hair back, hahaha, after that, 5plus, went cwp with mum & sis.
Bought new school shoes & stationary x)
Just reach home , gonna bathe already , super tired ;0
Tomorrow can see him already, hooray !~
But, i don't know how to face him seh, will he really pretend nothing had happen?
I really wonder man, roars, can't wait to see him tomorrow,

I wish : My hair is acceptable, my nose stud & ear stud won't get caught,
attire won't tio catch, wont' get disiao by someone, he* won't disiao bie,
can sit with my friends in class :]

HAPPY NEW YEAR BABE'S.(:

2009-01-01T00:29:00.002+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2009! (:
A very big goodbye to 2008, the good & the bad memories,
Arrival of 2009, wishing that my life would go smoothly & easy for me.
Hope my studies will improve , get good results for N-level.
Smoothly get up to sec 5 & poly :]
As for relationship, Hoping that i could grow old with him,
No quarells , arguement, objections , misunderstanding , third party's & so.
No more stress & sadness please, no more tears !
Wishing the friendships will all last yeah.
Tomorrow school will reopen, alot of things to do,.
Basically not prepared, hahah.
anyway, appreciate those who texted me to say Happy new year ,
Those who type a happy new year to me through msn chat (:
Thank you very much & may all of you have a good year ahead yeah.
Truckloads of loves. x3333.

& once again .
HAPPY NEW YEAR 2009!(=

I've unfaithful eyes but, a faithful heart :)

2008-12-31T19:35:00.003+08:00

Currently : Missing bie, stressing with b's,preparing for school in 2days time.

I just want you here beside me baby. i miss you so bad.
Today went to meet bilian GF at 2.30pm @ causeway point.
Went there to buy a new pencil case,ring,ear sticks,hairdye :)
Either gonna dye my hair black today or tomorrow =)
Lucidol hair dye is selling cheap now, usual $11.50, now $5+ :]
After that ,went home around 4pm, onlined. Was kinda busy.
I miss bie so much cans?! ROAR. smack him, mia. fuck.
I think mum's not gonna buy me new school shoe, so, washed my old shoes like crazy.
Scrubbing like hell, as its an old* shoe already,
2more days to school reopen, i'm not ready, but, we got into same class si0l.
HAHAHA, yes, i'm happy with that, but,but, sure got upcoming troubles. )=
However, studies come first, no more problems about r/s pls.
Either come or go. thats all. :l

; After 12am tonight, it would be 2009.
All of 2008 will be washed away, memories will be thrown =)
Throw away all the unhappy things, let happy things move on.
'E', You'll be the first of the year & the last of my lifetime. okay? (:

Tag replies :
Peien : I'm not chio lahs.Zzzz. Tagged you back already.
Shuting : Yeap. same.
Ahyeen J✿ : Haha. no one admire me luhs x] , yeap. kick away those 2008 memories & starting to have new memories yeah :]]]

Hell ! ><
I miss him so bad & i seems to go crazy soon )=
Once again, never wanna lose him, so,
i'll wait, as waiting might have ending ? (:

&& I need & wished for this guy with these points below :

• The guy who loves you, cannot tell you the reason why he loves you. He only knows that in his eyes, you are the only one.

• The guy who loves you, will always make you mad, but he will never know what stupid thing he did, because to him, everything he has done is for your own good.

• The guy who loves you, seldom praises you , but in his heart, you are the best, & only he knows it.

• The guy who loves you, will scold or complain if you din't reply his messaged but not others, because he cares.

• The guy who loves you, will remember every word that you said, even by accident. And he will use those words always at the right time.

• The guy who loves you, will not give any promise that easily,because he doesn't want to break the promise, he wants you to trust him, and he will always give you the happiest and safest life.

• The guy who loves you, always tell you not to think too much, because he has already planned it for you, he wants to give u the best life in the future, he wants to give you a suprise, believe that he can do it.

• The guy who loves you, maybe he can't remember special occasion like anniversaries, but , he do know that, every second he lives, he's loving you, no matter what day is today.

• The guy who loves you, would say "i love you" on and on,because everything he has done for you shows that he loves you. He will say the word at a special situation, because he dun wan u to misunderstand, he wants to make sure u know that he still loves you.

• The guy who really loves you, will feel that, somethings have to be said for only once, because he thought that u have understood him, if talk too much, there will be nothing for you to cherish.

• The guy who loves you, will go to airport to fetch you, he won't carry a bunch a rose and call you "darling, what you expect?" but he will carry your luggage and ask you " why have you became so thin within two days?" with a sincere heart.

• The guy who loves you, will listen quietly to you when you are mad, until you're finished, he would say, "you still got class tomorrow, sleep earlier." with a smile.

• The guy who loves you, won't know that whether he should call you or not when you are angry, but he will send a message to you after few hours, ifyou ask him why he didn't call that late, he will say, "when you are angry,my explanation are all rubbish. But when you calmed down, my explanation will make sense."

• The guy who loves you, will always call you 'little girl', b'coz he wants u to stay young n cute all the time. But everytime before making a big decision, he will first want to hear your opinion n advice.

• The guy who loves you, while quarelling, he will apologize without seizing, althought you are the one who's wrong, and later, he will sent amessage to you with "baby, actually its your fault, you know it urself"

• The guy who loves you, while really miss you, he will want to buy a bunch of roses and wait for you stupidly under your apartment, without even telling you. But in his heart he knows that u can sense his presence n u'll come on ur own.

• The guy who loves you, will not always understand you, or never will know when u'll get angry, but he is actually trying his best to understand.

• The guy who loves you, will buy u something u least expected on ur birthday, but he actually had planned that gift, months before ur birthday~

• The guy who loves you, would find it very hard to the first 'i love you',bcoz he worries that u might not like him. He worries of loosing u.

Stress stress stress! _l_!

2008-12-30T18:53:00.002+08:00

Today went to school for dance practice, tot instructor will come today,
wait & wait, end up realise she's still sick so , not coming. Zzz.
We continue to practice, after that , go 211 buy food, den go back school.
after dance, went to cwp, slack awhile with audrey, emo.
After that went home, den bathe & meet euson with my sis,
went to eat gelare ice cream, euson treat me as b'day present, thankyou.
After that ,buy ham & bread , den bus homed.
Currently stress & pek cek.
Decided to close my blogshop already, no mood for that. too stress.
For contact lens, Anyone still interested, can order & pay first.
sending orders soon, NO PAYMENT = NO ORDER.
Payment must be made before i sent in orders , avoid problems.
This saturday gonna collect lens. Anyone can accompany me to seng kang?
HAISH.NO MOOD. _l_.

; Audrey help me phone bie today,
& its true that he's hp wasn't with him .
I really don't know what to do, too much of stress already.
My mind going black out already,
Fuck love lah. Cannot make it den cannot make it lah, i don care anymore.
CMI den stay single lor. won't die.

Every time I found the words to say
What I thought would make things okay
I kept it all inside
Slowly drowning in my pride
I never could admit my own mistakes
Some how I thought things would fall into place
And I made a change too late
Here, past all the lights
Where everything's clear
Nothing seems to change
How I love you and now
You're gonna leave
I'm just slowly dying here inside
Trying to let go
Maybe I just thought I had you here
I thought that you would not go anywhere
I abused my position and I didn't care
And now that you no longer turn to me
And it seems that you got over me
I can hardly breathe
You no longer need me
I'm just sorry I found out late but all the choices I Made I thought of me
And not how it'd be to watch you walk away
I know I'll never make it right but everyday I try
In hopes you might come back you're where my heart's at
I have to find a way
Here, past all the lights
Where everything's clear
Nothing seems to change
How I love you and now
You're gonna leave
I'm just slowly dying here inside
Trying to let go
And everytime I think of you
It's hard for me to think of what I can do
I used to have you here beside me
I just want you here beside me baby
How can the sun keep shinin'
When my whole body's cryin
I know I never told you why
I need you in my life
Ohohohooooo.
Here, past all the lights
Where everything's clear
Nothing seems to change
How I love you and now
You're gonna leave
I'm just slowly dying here inside
Trying to let go

I know i'm missing you badly )=

2008-12-29T22:21:00.004+08:00

I miss you,
I miss those days we were together ,
I miss those days you make me laugh ,
I miss those days we crap together ,
I miss those days when we played toys ,
I miss those days when we argue about him & her ,
I miss those days when you pampered me ,
I miss those days in your arms ,
& I wish you were here with me ,
So, i will make sure, i'll never let you go again ):
I finally know, why do i never know what i've got till its gone.
I regretted for treating you in a bad way, perhaps, i'm not perfect.
But, bie, these days without your text/calls, i feel myself grown,
i become stronger, i wish you were here to watch me grow.
I want to let you know, love might be just a word,
but, i love you, & its no longer using my mouth to say or typing you a text,
its that, i'm gonna prove to you, without you, life won't be that beautiful.
Today is the 4th day you mia-ed . I really panic,
I feel so pathetic . I finally know, how much i need you .
Although, i know, you might never love me, but, i'm in love with you again.
I know you'll hurt me, but,but, i just couldn't do anything else.
My heart sticks to yours, Could you please text me soon?
The history rewinded , im afraid of losing you the second time,
i hate those days, it hurts terribly . i want you, yes you, M.E.S!!
I hope, those promises never fade away.. I'm still here, waiting perhaps?

Okay, back to my daily progamme.
Today, went to school for modern dance practice & bought school books,
its so heavy-.-" , well, went to office & i realise, next year i'll be going to 4N2.
Same as audrey & bilian, hooray. haha, somehow, same as A.)=
ok, found out today instructor is sick & won't be able to make it.
grrr. so, we slack & dance awhile, was trying to look for him through the crowded ncc boys,
i couldn't find him, he aren't there. keep on texting, no replies. i feel so sad.
After dance, wanted to cut hair, end up full ; haish. nevermind.
went to causeway, bought a head band again x) after that, home sweet home,.
reached home , eat & thinking of what time to prepare.
3pm, went to bathe & changed, waiting for dummie to come back woodlands,.
well, fallen asleep while waiting, meet him at 6plus?
We went to buy movie tickets, the queue was long okay! ,
We bought the tickets of "Bed time stories" , @ 7.45pm .
While waiting, we went to the nearby place to sit down.
Around 7.28pm, we walk to the entrance there, wait.
haha, he keep saying we're kiasu. Zzz, yeap, of course,
This is called, "Singaporean" (: , after that, went in,
Guess what? its hall 1 , where i went to watch 'Twilight" with bie.
We bought the tickets at the same counter too. haish.
I MISS BIE LAH. FUCKFUCKFUCKFUCK.
After that, watch the movie, && ended at 9plus,
Dummie accompany me to bus stop, den i bused home,
went to 7eleven to help my sis buy her drink while i bought my faved.
"Famous Amos Cookie!" homed, eat , gonna remove make up & bathe soon.

'Bie, life is hard , yes, it is.
I'm trying my very best to bring us back, & i really did,
but, when i'm about to done, you're gone , Missing In Actions.
What should i do? i text you , alot alot. None replies i get back.
I feel myself so pathetic, 4days to school reopen ,
Will you pretend nothing had happen, or will you bother to explain to me?
I really wonder. how have you been?
Days without you is so terrible.
When you're gone, den i realise, you're the one i love & i need.
I guess, i would wait ...

3more days to go , What's the ending??? -____-

2008-12-28T20:05:00.001+08:00

Aloha! :] Reader's , i'm here to blog again.
Gonna share, Today i'm super duper hyper bored ):
Tried to saiko ppl come out, failed=( , all not free. TMD.
Nevermind, kept on using com , onlined. chit chat lohs.
After that, afternoon, mum came back, bought Rojak. awwwws.
Anyway, new name for bff, Elmo . twinny is Emo =) ,
Here to congrats him, his performance ytd, DVR came in 3rd .Congrats.
Well, i've been watching TongHua,Fairytales mv, tears starts rolling down my cheeks.
Well, so than, Altaz dummie woke up, & replied text, yeah, he came over 883,
to meet me as i pass him the hoodie,he toot si0l :X
Actually ask him to cross the road over to the opposite bus stop,
but, he didn't . Zz. den text him ask him cross over loh. after that,
at bus stop, let him try the both hoodie, test test. okok, finally picked one.
after that, accompanied him & his friend , he went to photocopy ic.
After that they went to 7eleven to get drinks. laughss. he's dumb.
After that, they left, i go buy my food & went home to eat. thats my breakfirst?
haha.so & so, chatted with him online & screen shot things he drawn. haha.

; 3days . I just want to say , fate wasn't in us ?
&& i'm over bff =)))))))))))))))

I just want to say, 3more days to go.
No matter what & why you didn't text me,
Its no longer important, if you really cares, you would find a way to contact me,
or even ask your friend to update me about you, but, you did nothing.
So, I'm not gonna care , currently letting go.
No more faith in you, in us.
We should just be friends, as what i told you in the first place yeah.

You made me breatheless .

2008-12-27T23:49:00.008+08:00

• Happy 15th Birthday,  Bao Shuang (:
Hello, dearest readers , Today i went out again, don't have to rot at home ((((((=
Basically, woke up in the morning, found myself no where to do, i was over bored.
Tried to ask ppl out, but, all not free ): After that chat with bilian gf online,
she say she later going to help up at her dad's rc , got childrens party,
wah, i said, i want to go! , haha, after that, went to her place at 3plus . (:
After that help up to blow the ballons & tied them up , after that , slack & went to eat.
After that, slack & watchg tv. den headed to her house, wait for her to bathe,
while update my blog awhile, hmmms, he still haven text me. wth.
Well, after that, her parents went back home to bathe as well, her mum ask me to bathe also,
hahaa,so, bathe, after that, make my hair, make up, & went down Rc,
in the mean while, Xiner joined us, we went to collect the goodie bag, with KFC :D
After that, went to block 206, sit down & eat, camwhored . after that MeiJun & BaoShuang camed.
After that, me,gf & meijun headed to woodland centre, bought a cake for Baoshuang :]]
Anyway, i spoiled 2lighters today , im sorry. gahaha. Sing birthday song to her ;
den sit down & eat the cake & enjoy green tea ! :DDD
Den of course, camwhored again, hahaha. After that, lucky draw -.-" , den end show!
They sent me to bus stop & bus came, wave & say goodbye.
Den went home alone .
I was thinking, all the way.
Will there be any reason's for not texting me? or is it because you don't want to?
I feel so pathetic si0l :( What to do? Should i let go? i'm afraid to regret.
Everybody seems leaving me one by one now. i hate this. fuck _l_.

; I just wanna say, i tried my very best to ... you, but, you seems so fake.
I still think, i'm not over him ? or i just couldn't forget those joys? perhaps .
Love is just a word, never talk about love if it aren't really there.
6more days to school reopen. shake it. (:


There's so much i can't say &
its so hard to get around you nowadays
i've tried my best to let go,
erasing every single memory of you & i
i just cant make this feeling stop ,
cause youre the one who make me live .
i can't seem to forget you , no matter
how hard i've tried..


Love is like a gust of wind
It leaves after it has blown
This sort of rhythm
Would frustrate anybody
After I lost you
I lost my soul
Dark clouds are descending
I am dragged along
Quietly, softly, sadly leaving
Sinking deep into danger ? baby
It's like my world has been ripped apart by violent wind and rain
Love came too quickly, just like a tornado
Can't leave the storm and it's too late to escape
I can't think about this again
Unknowingly, unfeelingly, you have already left me
Unknowingly, unfeelingly, I follow this rhythm
Looking back, another autumn has passed
Looking back, I should have lived my life better

One last chance, take it, or leave it (:

2008-12-27T18:13:00.002+08:00

Hello everyone , I'm currently at bilian GF house.
Went over to her place , later gonna help up at rc. :D
Hmms, everyone, i guess i'm still healing in process.
Well, he's off my mind (:
Towards bie, one last chance,
If you text me before 12am tonight, i'll give you a last chance.
I know, i seems so basturd towards you, but, you know what my heart is thinking right?
I just wanna say , if you don't bother, i won't even care .
I know my heart do beats for you, but, it can also beat without you.
You made me love you, you made me forget you. thats all.
You didn't reply my text since yesterday mid night,
If today mid night, i didn't receive your text at all, den i'm sorry.
i gotto go and give you up :D

Will update again tonight , be right back (:
Anyway, im still heart broken over bff. haish.

I watch my heart scarttered!

2008-12-26T22:54:00.017+08:00

p/s : Video removed reduce lag-ness.
Whats wrong with me? I'm suppose to put my whole heart on him,
But, why when you told me this, my heart scarttered, burst out crying.
Why? i asked myself, i answered myself , fate brought us to be friends only.
I feel so brokenned, this is when i realise, who i really love.
But, what can i do? forcus of him? he'll definitely break me. haish.
Why? why? why? why? why?
Why all this things happen to me? I really didn't know i would cry for you the second time.
Where is all the things you ever said? Perhaps , im the one who is being zi zuo duo qing bah.
Fuck it, Love is so unfair, & i realise , love is just a word to me .
So, if i said , i love you, i just mean that you were no difference from anyone else.
I hate my life now, its not suppose to turn out this way, why?
i really don't know what will i do to ease the pains.
My heart really feel the pain, i kept on crying .
So stupid, so idiot , PATHETIC ME.

& I know, i'm no longer that someone who can be very faithful with a guy.(:
How i wish i could fool all the guys in the world, knnbpcb.
I just don't feel good now, feel like dying.
I wish time could rewind, so,so, i'll make the right decision.
SINGLE<<; iny baby. ; When i first know you, i tot i was fated to know you, Fated to love you & wishing that we could be together, i was totally wrong, it aren't fate, its just a lie. I don't know how to face you anymore, i don't know how to text you, chat with you on msn. I just no, this is the first time, i feel so heart brokenned , for someone which i've never met. so... so.. FUCK EVERYTHING. I want the old me back, can i? 2008, before go to china, can i? I feel that i changed alot after i came back, falling in love with M guys, don't even bother to watch C guys. WTF. Whats wrong with myself? Achanceofloveissounplanned ; Shuo hao de xing fu ne / Where's the promised happiness?

} If you remembered, i sent you this before ;
Your reply is in a mess
at this moment in time,
i thought of the pigeon beside the fountain,
the sweetness is scattered.
a mysterious tugging of my emotions
i'm still loving you.
but you continued singing
pretending that nothing has happened.
time has passed and left,
love is faced with a choice.
you've become cold and i've cried
the unhappiness you felt when you left,
you just wrote them down on a card.
sometimes love can only be like this and it's really painful.
what happened, you're tired, where is the happiness that we agreed on?
i understand, don't say anymore, love has weakened, my dreams have drifted.
being happy or not, narrating them one after another, you cant bear it.
those feelings of loving were way too deep, i can still remember them.
you're not waiting anymore, wheres the happiness that we agreed on?
i was wrong, tears have dried, we've let go, we've regretted.
only that musical box of memories still continue to turn,
how can it be stopped?

Tong Hua ; Fairy tales
I’ve forgotten how long it has been
Since the last time I heard you
Tell me your favorite story

I have thought for a long time
I start to panic
Wondering if I have done something wrong again
You told me as you cried
That everything in fairy tales are all lies 
I couldn’t possibly be your prince.
But perhaps you don’t understand either 
Ever since you told me you loved me
All the stars in my sky have brightened.
I’m willing to become the one in the fairy tale
The angel that you love
I extend this pair of hands
and turn them into wings to protect you
You must believe
Believe we will be like we are in a fairy tale
Where blessings and happiness is the ending
You told me as you cried
That everything in fairy tales are all lies 
I couldn’t possibly be your prince.
But perhaps you don’t understand either 
Ever since you told me you loved me
All the stars in my sky have brightened.
I’m willing to become the one in the fairy tale
The angel that you love
I extend this pair of hands
and turn them into wings to protect you
You must believe
Believe we will be like we are in a fairy tale
Where blessings and happiness is the ending
I will to become the one in the fairy tale
The angel that you love
I extend this pair of hands
and turn them into wings to protect you
You must believe
Believe we will be like we are in a fairy tale
Where blessings and happiness is the ending
I will to become the one in the fairy tale
The angel that you love
I extend this pair of hands
and turn them into wings to protect you
You must believe
Believe we will be like we are in a fairy tale
Where blessings and happiness is the ending
Together we can write our own ending

When you're gone
I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cry
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie is made up on your side
When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?
When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it ok
I miss you
I've never felt this way before
Everything that I do reminds me of you
And the clothes you left, they lie on the floor
And they smell just like you, I love the things that you do
When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now
When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it ok
I miss you
We were made for each other
Out here forever
I know we were, yeah
All I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I'd do, I'd give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me, yeah
When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it ok
I miss you

I

Innocence

Waking up I see that everything is ok
The first time in my life and now it's so great!
Slowing down I look around and I am so amazed
I think about the little things that make life great
I wouldn't change a thing about it
This is the best feeling
This innocence is brilliant, I hope that it will stay
This moment is perfect, please don't go away, I need you now
And I'll hold on to it, don't you let it pass you by
I found a place so safe, not a single tear
The first time in my life and now it's so clear
Feel calm I belong, I'm so happy here
It's so strong and now I let myself be sincere
I wouldn't change a thing about it
This is the best feeling
This innocence is brilliant, I hope that it will stay
This moment is perfect, please don't go away, I need you now
And I'll hold on to it, don't you let it pass you by
It's the state of bliss you think you're dreaming
It's the happiness inside that you're feeling
It's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry
It's the state of bliss you think you're dreaming
It's the happiness inside that you're feeling
It's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry
It's so beautiful it makes you want to cry
This innocence is brilliant, it makes you want to cry
This innocence is brilliant, please don't go away
'Cause I need you now
And I'll hold on to it, don't you let it pass you by
This innocence is brilliant, I hope that it will stay
This moment is perfect, please don't go away, I need you now
And I'll hold on to it, don't you let it pass you by

An old yellow lamp
Time beside me, not making a sound
Loneliness mercilessly on me
Not knowing different intensities (of light and hard)
Quietness has crossed over to strangeness
Quietly looking at morning and sunset
Your silhouette losing balance falling slowly
Darkness is already encircling us in the sky
where I should face? I can't see
Perhaps love is at the other end of a dream
unable to survive in the realms of reality
Want to return to the past
to try to hug you
Blushing (shy) face has a little childish side
Want to see the world you see
want to be in your dreams
Only if we lean on each other can we feel the sweetness (or blissfulness)
Want to return to the past
to try to allow the story to continue
At least I won't allow you to leave me again
I'll take note when we part
to hug you even tighter
This sort of salvage effort, I don't know if it's still in time
Want to return to the past
Emotions keep stopping the memories playing (in my head)
Blindly chasing and looking yet still empty-handed (or in vain)
On a grey and unclear night, I don't know where sleep has hidden
Before I know it loneliness is already lying beside me
Quietness has crossed over to strangeness
quietly looking at morning and sunset
Your silhouette losing balance falling slowly
Want to return to the past

I kept asking myself, yeah, i was just the one who's thinking too much.
I really regretted for everything that i've done. i really regretted .
I watch my own heart scarttered , much more painful than how E hurts me.
&& i don't know why, i realise, i love him* , but, he's gone.
Last long with your girlfriend ...
( Zhe bu shi wo de xing li hua !!!)
Like i said, For someone like me, i won't be able to meet a good good guy.
i know my limits, i didn't expect much, forget it. i belive its fate.
i believed in karma, this is my karma..
For all the guys that i've hurt before, let god punish me now (:
if i can, i wish to be single now.

Nevermind , i must face the reality & stay happy.
If someone makes you sad, you must make yourself twice as happy.:D
This is the only thing i can do,
Towards biie, i still cannot put my whole heart in him,
cos i know, he'll hurt me someday.
Let my heart stays with myself . Nobody can hurt me.
(= , come on girl, CHEERUP. :DDD

I know , you've go your own way ):

2008-12-26T18:48:00.007+08:00

Yesterday night, recieved Shang Yuan text, ask to accompany her to pasir ris.
So,meet her this morning at 11am outside boots & shoes.
Went to food court to have our breakfirst , & trained to pasir ris,
wanted to take bus, but, somehow, decided to take mrt in the end ^^ .
Reached Pasir ris, went to walk walk, after that go high tea -.-" ,
go sit down & drink . after that, went to meet the blogshop ppl. T.T
She keep begging me to lower the price , i feel so pissed.
After that take bus 6 to loyang cresent, suppose to collect something,
end up never open, secondly pissed, wastage of time & sweating! ):
Nvm, after that headed to bugis, great temptation to text him,
but, i know, i must not, Cold war-ing )':
After that, went to buy my heineken tanktop , searching around for bagpack,
i found 1! , $30 , yeahyeah, bought it already. wahaha. x))
After that, went to mos burger to eat, the burger simply sucks .
The burger itself its super hard & the fish seems over cooked. wtf.
I eat half & throw the rest. after that, go mac, shang yuan buy her stuff,
bused to woodlands, at first didn't manage to get a seat, fuck.
after that the couple sitting infront of us, the guy put his hand of the girl shoulder,
keep playing around, wth. feel like slapping their face loh, nvmnvm,
listen to my music, after that, few stops than the couple drop down,
we can have their seat, whoo. song. sit down, start dozing off. :X
Super tired lah, yesterday didn't sleep well, quarell with him :(
gaaaaa, nvmnvm, every body seems leaving now, onebyone.
Forget it, i've gotto go my own way than.
'what about us? what about everything we been through?
what about trust? you know i never wanted to hurt you,
what about me? what am i suppose to do? )':
I gotta leave but, i miss you ! '

; The love is fading my dear.
Bukan aku tak cinta kau, aku cinta kau!
but,but, haish. everything changed yeah.

I'm staring at your photograph,

Remembering each moment you made me laugh,

I never thought it would end this way,

That I'd still be missing you to this every day...

I cry for the time that you were almost mine,

I cry for the memories I've left behind,

I cry for the pain, the lost, the old, the new,

I cry for the times I thought I had you

Beware of the players, they'll steal your heart

And they'll give it back, all torn apart

Don't let them suck you into their game

Because once you lose, you are never the same

I guess I was just a game to you..
You just needed someone to wrap around...
didn't care who she was..
did you think that I like being used?

>>>
I want a guy who calls me beautiful instead of hot,
who calls me back when i hang up on him,
who will lies under the star and listen to my heart beat,
or will stay awake just to watch me sleep ,
i'll wait for the boy which kisses my forehead,
who wants to show me off to the world when i'm in sweats,
who holds my hands infront of his friends,
who thinks i'm just as pretty without my make ups on,
one who is constantly reminding me of how much he cares,
& how lucky he is to have me,
& the one who turn to his friends and say " Thats her" ...

Merry Christmas darlings <33

2008-12-25T20:55:00.003+08:00

Hello hello ,
Firstly : Merry Christmas! :}
Today woke up early in the morning, wash up & use the com,
texted bilian gf ask her wanto meet anot, end up meet her,
suppose to meet at 1.30pm, but, around 1 she already at interchange,
so, faster rush to cwp meet her, after that, walk walk awhile,
her friend join us, den went to eat kfc, saw 1 auntie, sot sot want,
her hair stylo milo sia, i jealous. :X
After that, bilianGF want to go home already, so, went home ,
reached home, use com again, haha,.well, after that around 5plus,
went to causeway point with my mummy, go walk walk at cwp,
kinda tiring, didn't see any friends there loh, sad case.

; we're drifting apart, if you realise, you're gone. )':
You said best friends won't leave each another, make sure you mean it hor,

; I'll try to put all my feelings on you, & i hope , history won't flash back, :)

Bye loves,
anyway, appreciate those who wish me merry christmas through msn,text.
especially Azrill, louis di,desmond di, so sweet lah.

Christmas eve ; & i'm alone :D

2008-12-24T23:26:00.004+08:00

A chance for love is so unplanned -BFF♥

Today woke up around 11plus, wash up & went online,
chat with bff , he today become tour guide , hahaha .
I sent him the photo that i editted :] haha . after that, he gtg, den offline.
Den i ate my breakfirst, mum cooked, after that, continue use com,
awhile later, sis woke up, early in the morning, screaming for the com.Zzz.
After that, watch tv, today is god damn boring. facing walls at home,
did abit of my art work, confirm cmi, den listen to music & emo x))
Camwhored due to boring-ness yeah. listening to music,
i feel myself so.. i just want to be alone for a while =)

; You changed, so much , i couldn't recognize you.
You faded away from me , i wish i never take you back. x___x''.

} Still waiting for "Your Guardian Angel" & "Fall for you" :]

; To: Bilian GF.
GF! Don't be sad , you still have me, i promised you lend you my shoulder liao x)
Guy's come & go , Hahaha, its only he's being stupid enough to go.
Only when you get hurt, you'll find the right want, isn't it? =) > its what you told me.
so, jiayou yeah. :] He might be the right one :}
Don't forget, I LOVE YOU MANY MANY HOR!:D

' Aku cinta kau , sayang <3 ' truckloads.

You're the only one that made me smile ;

2008-12-23T20:53:00.004+08:00

Hello everyone, its time to update my blog (:
Today, went to school for modern dance practice, somehow, in the morning,
when i wanted to leave home , i found my ez-link card gone, omgomg.
Keep searching & searching , i still couldn't find it, wth. forget it, leave home,
went to 883, bought batteries for mp3, after that, went to bus stop to wait for audrey,
i was so rush, wanted to find my ez-link card as soon as possible,
rush to causeway, went to the interchange service counter, yeahyeah, found my card,
&& i was so stupid to ... talk to my card ; " I'll cherish you from now" , hahaha.
After that, rush to school, we was late, one complain queen wanted to write our name down.
What the hell. smack her. haha, after that, practice, slack, den emo. after dance,
went back home bathe & prepare to meet E. , Met him at 2pm, outside burger king..
Den went to cathay & bought "Twilight" movie tickets , he treat me for movie,
Thanks E. (: & i remembered, Bff was waiting for this movie to be shown. haha.
We wanted 2.10pm show, end up no more space already )': , sad case.
den watch the 4.35pm show lohs. Mean while, went to walk walk,
play toys! hmmms, saw kahkin & his steady , & wanny. laughss.
After that, around 4.16pm, went up to cathay, den wait for no. 1 to blink,
oh, yeah, times up, went in, sit down. so relax, the movie is nice! .
So so nice & somehow romantic. Its worth it =) !!
After movie, home sweet home. onlined,
saw bff's offline message, he was super duper understanding okay!!!.
My heart sank, it really do.. i really don't know what to do, i panick..

} ilyilh.
No one can feel how i feel now.
The pain in my heart,
i tried to love you & you keep want me to think back of him.
& why? since you ask me to go with him, why still......? Zzzzz.

I feel so sad, its not what i eventually wanted

2008-12-22T21:54:00.002+08:00

9.35pm ;
I'm not happy at all, i feel so gone. )':
This is not what i wanted , it all faded away .
Nobody will understand how i feel now.
Have i made a wrong decision?
ily, ilh. ):

;BFF , its forever !

What a day .!

2008-12-22T18:29:00.002+08:00

Hello everyone ; back to blogging again. x)
Today woke up at 8am, oh, shyt, i was late. suppose to wake up at 7.30am.
Damn, my alarm clock didn't ring ): , after that, rush to bathe & prepare to go to school.
Meet audrey at bus stop & bused to school, tomorrow still got practice :X
After that, meet bilian at bus stop, den go to school . :]
Went to canteen to get drinks , after that slack there, as teacher haven come,
Den saw Ms pearlyn, den went to Mpr together . Prepare & do warm ups. yawn.
Didn't meet E. today , Think meeting E. tomorrow, i suppose.
After dance, went to eat at 211, after that go cwp with audrey,
went there to slack, listen to music & emo! .
I texted with BFF ! i just don't feel good . I feel like, i'm so bad.
& ily lahs. :X

; BFF , you'll always stands a very important place in my heart :D
You made me happy when i'm sad, you bring me up when im down,
You're so special, Fated to know you alrights (: x33

} Things changed, it'll never be the same like last time,
yes, i changed, i'm who i am, take it or leave it. (:

2008-12-21T15:56:00.004+08:00

Hello my friends , i'm back ! :]

191208-201208:
Meet bilian, Audrey & Kahkin at interchange , after that pass charcoal to him,
den we went to buy table cloth, actually wanted to buy mat, but, no more.
So, bilian bought a table cloth, with pink flower prints,
so, we could sit or lie down on the cloth at night :)
The bbq, suppose to start at 3, but, end up 5plus, den they reach.
we took bus down, overshot, den drop down at parkway parade,
den while wait for bilian bf there, kahkin go buy sweet.
after that, walk to east coast, the pic was damn far far away,
most of all was complaining,den they decided to rent bike,
but,i didn't, becos i find it a waste of money, den i walk.
[: ; beside our pit, was a group of indian guys pit. laughss.
After that, sit down, went to toilet with bilian, den while walking,
damn funny thing, den got a guy cycling the 2person bike,
he was at the back, turn back* to look at us, den donno tell his friend wad,
den i was like, after that i go tell bilian, *scolded that guy* laughs.
after that go back, den put lotion ! put alot alot, cos weather is very hot,
den my skin turning red, den kah kin keep say i kiasu.
No loh, girls are like that what, prepare what they need to before they go.
Unlike guys, always last min want, hahaha.
after that around 5plus, haziqah they all came , its a finally..
after that, go cam whoring, den the go cycle, i help them take photo.
after that, quite late, E came. i saw him, den my mind was like, BLANK.
totally blank, ok, didn't wanto bother, went Emo-ing.
After that, kahkin they all go fetch xuanhui, & i didn't know,
i was alone there, i feel my heart breaking, i'm suppose to have forgotten about him,
& yes, i do, its just that , memories flash back my mind, he's trying to kill me.
LOL. of couse, i didn't let it all kills me, after awhile, i break down, & start crying,
Ahyeen came to console, i feel better, & decided to go toilet to wash up myself,
after that, i came back, haziqah say E wants to talk to me. i was like, why?! i don't want.
after that, yeap, he came to talk to me alone.
E asked , if i'm fine? i seems i'm not ok. i said, i'm fine, perfectly fine,
he say,the way you talk to me seems you are not happy with me,
i was like. zzz. heckcare, asked him to go, & there is when ppl snap shot us behind.
Zzz. After that, he keep ask me go back the pit & he said, i've changed,
i said, yeap, i have changed be'cos i grown up. hahaha , cool yeah. (:
After that, went back there, audrey they all are back,yeahyeah,
go sit when kahkin they all at another table, while we all shared macroni,
2plate, around 5-6ppl share, at that time, it was my breakfirst,
i haven ate anything before that, h0hos.
After that, late liao, many went back home,
den after that , at night, kahkin very kind lohs.
hahaha, i wanto go toilet , den quite far, he say he cycle me go,
woot. song bo, den want to go time , still remind me i got bring my things not,
den i realise, oh, shyt,in another bag,den run back to take,haha
den chiong to toliet, wooooh,got insects in the basin, eeeeks.
Did text with BFF also, heeheeh, den E say, ya la, sms sms with bf right,
Zzz. after awhile, we put the cloth, den went back pit him,
E was not there, he went to sent her to bus stop. lawls.
den he come back alone, there's when i know, he treat every girls the same,
even when we were steady, also like that nia, so, whats the point?
Laughss, after that, at night, i saw something, i was very disappointed,
becos i didn't know it, & i was like, Zzz, moodless & wanto cry.ggrrrr.
nvm , den go cycling with gf, den cut till my leg, fuck, pain.
den put plaster norh, so & so, after that, kahkin cycle me,
den bilian & the malay guys, we all went to 7eleven ,
kahkin help someone buy drink , den while at there ask ppl help buy cigg. [x.
after that, back to pit, roars, tired seh. go put the table cloth again,
lie down, with kahkin,audrey,xinhui,Kl, we watch the stars. fun.
Den i keep saying , why i don't have boyfriend now? laughhs.
anw, kk say i changed liao )': , TMD, at first my face like, sad, he say,
you okay not? i say okay, he say, don't bluff, i know you for 3years already,
laughss, he said he prefered the old me, haha, i promised i'll change back.
RAWR. after that, so & so, mid night, i was with E all,
den bilian with the stead at pit, den others went cycling,
i was like, impossible to go pit, to be light bulb. den nvm,
i stay there, haha. after that, so & so, 4plus am, den cycle to mac.
i text E , asked him if he wanto come, no reply,
den kahkin saw him, den they came together,
after that the malay guy's came also,
i ate hot cake's , damm full, after that cycle cycle,
went to watch sun rise, weeets, nice, but, E keep irritate me lohs.
like, making stupid sound, treating me like cat ? laughss.
den go make dog sound somemore, laugh till peng! x))
okay, around 7plus, de malay guy's went home, left us.
den we go return bike, den bus back woodlands. weeeeets.
sleep in the bus loh. tired tired sia.after that reach woodlands,
went home, finally, charge phone, bathe & prepare to go chalet.
i was kinda tired lah, uncle drive me there while i sleep. hahaha.
reached, den change to suitable wear for wildwildwet! (:
I ate sandwhich first, i was hungry , i reach around 10plus,
den went to wild wild wet around 11-12plus. haha.
my first trip to wild wild wet, at first the water is damn cool,freeze*
haha,den go play the float , haa, float around, heeheeh. cool ah.
after that, den play ulala. we kept shouting, weets, after that,
my aunt & uncle wife all, 3ppl, come down with 3malay guys loh.
haha, i already know for sure they take same want , haha
after that , 2nd time we go play, saw the malay guys again, they infront of us ):
we lose, haha,after that, we still queueing up, our turn soon, den they 3guys
behind us liao, ,fast. den after that, spot for the camera, heeheehs.
after that, go play other things, we played tsunami,
saw the 3guys again, laughs, den i was with cousins,
after that, they like , disturb lohs, hahaha, than his friend go push him,
bang me, den he say, not me ah, my friend push, hahaha.funny loh.
after that, go a place got water fall want, den they also there, laughs.
so pain lo, laughs, after that, went to eat , after that ,
back to chalet, take turn to bathe, after that, doze off , i slept for 2hours?
den after that went down for bbq. haha, after that, quite long,
den go back room, keep falling asleep. lols.
after that , at night, E texted me, Zzz, i was texting with bff :)
after that, around 11plus, i go sleep. tired lahs.
after that, today morning, wake up, wash up all.
den wear contact lens, den pack things, den go eat breakfirst,
den went back home, so dizzy & tiring, feel like wanto puke.
well, after that, sleep for 3hours plus at home, so tired.
posting blog now, haha,
E want meet tml, Zzz.
Tomorrow got dance practice, yawn.

Okay, thats all.
No photo's . sry. Bb.

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BFF♥

2008-12-19T02:49:00.002+08:00

Hello , I'm not in the mood now .
Feel rather low & down . My mind is empty , i don't know what's wrong.
My heart wonders . I feel unhappy when i know news about you&your love.
Its not because i still love you, its just that, you've changed. Grrr.
Bff changed also, asshole him. Grrr.
School holiday's ending very very soon ):
Got to bring my mind back to school already. ass.
This holiday gave me lots of sadness, pains.
However, thats my choice, live it up , hehs.

; Sometimes, i try to pretend i don't care,
but, in my heart, i really really do care.
Sometimes i pretend i don't love you,
but, in my heart, i really really do.
Its hard for me now, life seems to be much terrible.
Love = Nothing (:
I've got 10ex-boyfriends . 5 break me, me break 5 .
Fair & square, who'll be the 11th?
Let's talk about this next year :D
I know, i want myself a boyfriend, who can love & care for me.
but, i know, i'm not capable to have any now.
Boy-friends are enough .
Guys are the same, none prove me wrong.

/ can i be back to normal me who falls for chinese guy?!
Just like just now at k-box... , i feel myself & now, i don't. grrr.

} Sometimes , i hope heart aches won't come to me,
the more i hope, the more it comes to me.
i don't dare to think much, i just wanto leave my heart empty.
It seems easy for me to fall in love & hard to fall out of it.
7weeks since i last loved you, 1week since i fall in love with another you.
I promise, i will get over the both of you.
Which i intend to start with & i have to end it all. (:
-E. , i know i'm over you, but, somehow, you try to make my heart fall. ): ihy.
-R. , Bff , is all we could be, the max we could be, & BFF yeah!
Don't forget you said you will make me happy when im low,
bring me up when im down , & in whatever the case. ok.

[: . I love you, BFF.
I love all my girlfriends !
i love all those who cherish me.
I LOVE YOU GUYS. TOOT.

Party world ; i love you lahs! (:

2008-12-18T20:56:00.006+08:00

} Happy birthday to Bilian GF & Rojak BFF (:

Yesterday slept at 5plus am, was chatting with bff online.
Crapping around lahs.Today woke up at 10plus,
faster to prepare & meet bilian at cwp .
i waited for 40mins plus, Zzz, den audrey came, haha.
den wait for bilian, after that go tpy , meet bilian friend,
god damn lame, all of a sudden got smoke & polluted to entrance area,
many were running for lives, LOL. after a while, passenger was told to go out of the entrance,
after that, waiting for the guy to pass bilian present,keep dragging time,
Zzz. laughss, after that can go in already,
took train back woodlands, after that, meet meijun,xiner & baoshuang.
At party world, sing birthday song, den cut the cake, & start singing!
Have to admit that i was the one who sing the most,
as i snatched for the microphone (: LOL.
Keep single like hell! Love to sing lahs. weeeeeeeets.
Sing the song "Tong Hua", tears roll off my cheeks. so sad.
Anyway, we' were disturbing a chinese guy there,
he's quite charming, we were like, keep disturbing, when he walk pass,
i go wave to him, he was like, smile2 , laughs. i like , so paiseh loh.
hahaha, after that, 4hours pass, bill was $85.75 , weeets. sat sat oi!
den went to take pictures, after that eat ljs.
den audrey suddenly pass me a belated birthday present, so cool!haha.
thanks.

Okay, thats all for today, yawn. i'm tired.
Tonning tomorrow yeah. weeets .
Bff, must come ah! Grrrr.

&& Anyway, might be away for chalet on 19th-22ndDecember2008 (:

: Catch DVR live on 27thDecember2008 at Fuchun CC at 1pm (Ticket at $2)
; At Music Garage on 3rdJanuary2008 at 5pm (Ticket at $8)
Do support my BFF hehs! :) Spread the news alrights~!

BB loves.

爱到才知痛

2008-12-18T03:35:00.004+08:00

Hi everyone ; blogging in the mid night for ghost's again.
I'm not in the mood, basically, i felt i've torn apart.
I didn't expect things to end up like this,
I thought it would be as wonderful as what i thought, but, it didn't .
I know, i loved you, it seems impossible , but, i really do.
Somehow, i would have to face the reality & start anew again.
Guy's come & go, i agreed . Girls come & go, i agreed too .
Its not about who's fault it is, is about who is gonna determine to stay .
Its not about me saying i'm really heart broken now,
Its about me pouring out my emotions & i feel very empty inside .
My mind seems black-out . & i ought to be single at least for a month.
13days to go. School holiday's gonna end very soon.
Alot of things i need to do ,
- Get a bag pack
- Buy books
- Dye my hair black
- Iron my School Uniforms
- Prepare myself for school life again
- Prepare to not have much time out
- Prepare to work hard for N-level .

Life seems terrible ,
When you want it the best, it will never come to you .
When you don't really want it anymore , it will stick with you .
No one made you day, you yourself make you own's .
No one can ever make you laugh , unless he/she makes you cry.
No one is perfect , so, don't think that you are the worst .
Lots of craps here, as i've nothing better to do .
Anyway :
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO BILIAN GF & ROJAK BFF :D

; Let friendship covered those pains .
& Let " Your guardian angel" end those pains.
BFF ; is someone that's super duper special to me .
Although we CMI , but, we're still friends after all .
When the pain go away, everything will be back as usual.
You, my last love of the year . sat sat oi!

:] & i'm not gonna cry .

LOVESS ;
CONNIE! x) tititatuu!

14 more days to 1month single :DDDD

2008-12-17T21:11:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NONSENSEBOY ; ERWIN!.

Today, woke up around 12plus, was over bored,
Nothing to do, wake up, wash up, eat & use the com :)
Wanted to go out like hell :X , so, asked shang yuan to meet :DD
Meet her 3.40pm, i was late, psps. ): , after that, go walk walk,
than awhile more shu qi came to join us,
They 2 bian tai want los. x))))) ' hahaha.
Went to eat , den go arcade, play play play like crazy.
Laughss. after that go titanic slack, was sad. LOL.
Avoid is not a thing that real guys do :)
Well, after that around 7plus shuqi left,
den me & shang yuan go walk walk, den sit at titanic,
chit chat & gossip. grrrr. after that arond 8.20pm den went home.

; You'll always be my best friend forever.....HAISH.

Moodless, moodless,moodless.
2nd day.._l_ ;

imy.

Bb.

2008-12-17T02:16:00.002+08:00

Hello hello , I'm just over-bored , so update blog again! (:
} Upcoming events :D
; Erwin's Birthday (171208) ♥
; Bilian GF's Birthday (181208) ♥♥♥
; Rojak's Birthday (181208) ♥♥♥
; 3N2 class bbq (191208) ♥
; Chalet ( 19,20,21'1208) ♥♥
; Dance Practice ( 221208) ♥
; Christmas (251208) ♥♥
GRRR.
Christmas again! Anyone want to meet up ? Ton? (:

; Loving someone, is not just telling him/her " iloveyou",
Its not about pretending "you love him'her",
Its about proving to him/her , without him/her, life will never be as beautiful than you thought.
Its about showing him/her how much they really meant to you.
Love is not wonderful , Love is not perfect , Love is not everything ;
So, live it up. Without love , i must survive too .
Sometimes, things can't be forced, especially Love.
So, the only thing we can do is,
Open the door to let him/her in, & after the leave, sweep away the dust :]

I don't know how to really show .
I don't know how to really explain .
I only know, my heart wants you .
Its quite impossible to fall in love like the way i do ,
But, somehow, i'm not joking :l
YOU, YES YOU. Got my heart :0 Zzz.
Take it, but, never break it, if not i'll fall apart !
; Meet up soon yeah =)

Bb, going to bed soon ,
Someone, ask me out please. I'm bored.
No programme on ... ):

ROJAK♥

Everytime when i pour out my emotions, i feel emptier inside ):

2008-12-16T20:32:00.007+08:00

Love can make you happy
but often times it hurts,
but love is only special
when you give it to who its worth.

Hello, everyone, blogging again x)
Yesterday night, bilian gf sms me, ask to get nose pierced today,
I woke up around 11am,Saw her missed call, text her,washed up & onlined :}
Chit-chat with her, received nick msg? He asked to meet, lols.
But, didn't (: , Den rush to bathe & prepare, Den take bus to her house area.
Received E. text, GRRR. After that, walk to woodland centre with her,
Go get nose pierced, den went to buy bubble tea :D
After that,decided to go down bishan , went there to look for jam,
den eat there also, after that,4plus, headed back to woodlands,
in train, i get myself a seat (: , at around sembawang stop, a guy with tatoo's board the train,
woah, he's tatoo rocks , If i'm not wrong, he got the teardrop tatoo! OMG.
Okay, after that went to boot & shoes pei bilian gf buy sweet,
laughss, in order to get coins to take bus, she bought 2packets of tissue's ,
Kinda funny hehs. :X , after that Home sweet homeeeeeee ;]
Changed my nose stud,when i take out, bleeds, den keep pushing the stud in,
i thought it will close, but, it didn't (: , suddenly i pushed, den like, a gun shot it in.
Wooo.& finally it went it. grrrs ;0 ,

{ E }
; You always care about yourself, put yourself in first place,
In your heart, im always not the first, neither second,third nor fourth,
You only know how to put yourself in the first,
& Friends at the second,
Did you even care of my feelings? ; obviously NO.
I don't think i always have to go in YOUR way.
Knowing that i've to hide away all those sadness,
When i know, i couldn't hide it, its over! :)
& Basically i don't want to quarell with YOU. GRRRRRRR.
& I've already forgotten about you & everything .(:

;;;;
I'm afraid to love afraid to love so fast,
because every time I fall in love
it never seems to last.

BFF; is part of my life :D ilys.

Bb. LOVES.

I'm in love with you , i wanto be with you!

2008-12-15T20:15:00.002+08:00

Hello everyone , i'm here to blog again.
I rotted at home today ; GRRRR.
Today i woke up around 1plus, yesterday went to bed at 4am.
Was texting with Rojak♥ :] } 'He's my BFF♥ :D'
Sick, sick, got fever yesterday night, he too.. laughs.
Did text with him today, hmmm, onlined too.
Bilian gf told me something, WAH. congrats! lastlong.
& sad to say, i'm alone now, Singleeeeeee . ):
Laughs, no choice. Nobody fancy me lahs :DDDD
Laughss. okay, Went to see his♥ video today .
'When you're gone' damn sad si0l ): } He's an idiot :]]
& i'm in love with that idiot :X , shyt shyt..

♥} You stepped into my life,
You took the darkness & sadness away,
You made me forget about him,
You made me smile,
You made me want to fall for you,
& now, i've fallen in love with you .
I never met you before, but, the feeling is there..
i feel that its a fate for me to know you,
because' , firstly,
} At first, your name was close to his & Birthday also.
} You lived near my house area.
} You take the same bus with me .
} Was suppose to see you that day, but, you last min cannot come,
but, still i saw you (:
} We sick at the same time .
} We simply love some same song's.
} We share the same feelings in LOVE♥.
& i believe knowing you was fate :D

; Today is the 5th day i know you, if you remembered :)
I wanna be with you, idiot ass :BB♥♥♥
Fated to love you ;]

Bb. loves.
ROJAK is Loved♥♥♥♥♥♥ :]

I want to get attached? ; laughs.

2008-12-14T18:42:00.005+08:00

HEYLO. ; blogging again :]
Raining day today, likes my heart, the rains are like my tears.
The pains were like how you stabbed my heart , heeehs.
Okay, should start officially now.
Today, woke up at 10plus am, it was kinda early,
as i always wake up around 12pm. alrights,
Texted rojak, with out reply. GRRRRR.
after that wash up, went online,
chatted with bilian gf, & persuaded her to meet me. haha.
After that, went to bathe & prepare all.
Wait for her at interchange, walk walk,
den went to admiralty to eat my breakfirst, its around 2.15pm,
after that, went to staircase, "I saw those words we wroted!It sucks!" } )':
Okay,didn't think much as bad memories must be deleted. :l
After that, slack, till around 3plus, den stupid Azrill came, damm late.
As usual, he's in green. GO GREEN yeah! *laughs* :]]]
Den he with a guy which erwin help to spray his bike,
played soccer, lol. den soon, few more came., lalalallalalalas.
Yusman came! Disturb him lah, heeeeeeeeehs.
After that ,quite long den shamir came, lolss. {:
After that, around 4plus, gf wanto go home ler ):
Den went home loh. intend to stay late, but, somehow, very little ppl today.
so, ya, home sweet home , mum cooked, yeahyeah,
&& i ate so slow, for around 40mins? (x *Laughs*
Gosh. yesterday night, Grrr. got disturb calls, from jam bf. T.T
Today recieved a very mushy msg, & i feel disgusted lah.
PUKEEEEE* *laughs* , show bilian gf, she also cannot tolerate, laughhs.
Eeeeeks. Didn't intend to go bishan anymore. ROARS. x____x
Okay, Tuesday meeting bilian gf again ? (:
Going to town? WEEEETS. but, but, no money, no talk lah.ass.

} I don't know what's wrong with myself,
Falling in love ? or falling out of love ?
Thinking of the worst situation i could get myself to,
& thinking of what to do right now.
I simply wish to get attached, & i don't know why. *laughs*
Is a race very important thing? LOL.
Nvm, i'll figure it out soon. Friends is better than boy/girl friends,
But, sometimes, i wish we could be much more,
but, after a failure relationship, i don't have the guts to try again.
GRRRR. Where's all the C* guys? LOL.
Bilian gf say wanto introduce me soomeee. but, i said , no. laughs.
Natural take course? but, i believe its hard to fall in love w/ someone
that i didn't get to met face to face & communicate.
So, i'll never let myself fall in love . LAUGHS.
Even if i do, i'll be clever enough to know that,
he wouldn't feel the same.
Single is always the best , don't it? LOL.
Let me set target , single for a month ? (:
I hope i can reach my target even though i wish for a bf. lol.
Single life is funnnn. but, i didn't flirt alrights. :]
I scared, i liked you, ♥
i hope you can text me soon! (:

} Someone* texted me, & i feel nothing, yes, i'm over you (: FINALLY!

BYEEBYE. TOOTS.
Love is just a lie (:

Hoodie for sale!

2008-12-14T11:42:00.004+08:00

HHZ-D1 ; $20
*TAKENOTE* : its in BABYBLUE.
Urgently selling away, brandnew w/o package.
Material: Smooth
Any one interested , tag me. or text me if you got my number (:
& of course , do visit my blogshop ,
CLICK HERE!
Thanks.

OMG! I SAW HIM TODAY! (((((:

2008-12-13T22:06:00.005+08:00

; pictures pictures, yes yes, it is. (:

Today, woke up at 11am, wash up, bathe & prepare to meet jamilie.
Meet her at 12.30pm, i was late, abit rushy. :X
Reached, meet her at 7eleven, den went to shop awhile, around 1.30,
went to take bus 913 to admiralty, eat, indeed, suppose to meet azrill all,
&& yet, he texted me saying he cannot go, something on,
after that, they cancelled the soccer training today, because,
bad weather ): && wasted my time to go down, so,
went to bishan with jam, Her bf & friends were sooooo..... Zzz.
God damn lame lah. haha. keep disturb & talk cock.
After that, around 5.30pm?went to j8, eat mos burger..& headed back woodlands,
took train that terminates at yishun-.-, & waited for next train back woodlands.
Walk walk, slack, saw ck!T.T , after that went to slack around titanic [:
After that went to basment 1, walk, cold storage-d. den went out,
guess what happen???!!!
I SAW ROJAK!* :) , actually, i donno is it him,
but, it seems like, as i saw the guitar, so , so, i texted him,
i saw him up escalator while he took out his phone.
yes, yes , it was him, gagaga, hahaha, saw him yeah.
Such a coincidence man. [:
hah, den continue walk at cwp, den go slack at titanic again,
den go back cwp again, LOL. we were overbored.
after that, around 8? headed back home.
yeah, home sweet home, remove m.u , bathe.

; Today, i grown up again,
i've forgotten about you, i bet everything will soon be forgotten.
YOU, no longer the one i need,i miss, i love. (:
I could have forgotten about everything if you didn't text me ytd.

} i'm afraid, of falling in love with a friend of minee. GRRR.
}I'm afraid of falling in love with you, becos , i know you woudn't feel th same.
GRRR. poor meeee! helphelp! :] COOL.

Tags replies * :
Charmian : Welcome.
Alicia : Told you in msn liaos (:
Shah : Heylo heylo. ROJAK :D
Bilian : when i free sure go tag derh (:
Audrey : ohh. tyty (:

BYES LOVESSSS.

2008-12-13T02:06:00.002+08:00

Hello human & ghost's (:
Its a mid night post hear, basically,
i got something to say, yes,yes, right now!
12.44am, is the last text i've sent .
&he didn't reply (:
Okay, he texted me, while he needa return back the phone soon.
In the mean while, texting with him .
We've come out with a decision
& i cried alot while smsing with him yeah.
Today, its all over yeah .
I never regret the decision i made, because, i don want to make life difficult for you .
You walk your way, i walk my way, isn't it the best?
Anyway, i finally got the guts to delete away all the msg i saved (:
Now, im feeling okay, of course, still keeping contact with azrill all ;D
My eye hurts , it seems rather gonna close ? (:
GRRRRR. i want to be back myself.
I believe, the luck of love hasn't comes to me ; LOL.
Let fate decide everything yeah.
I will forget you, i can forget you ,i know i can do it .
But, it all takes time, & i'm healing now.
With friends, i can make it want lah. (:

Okay, just to say,
i'm half way through forgetting him,
he's off my heart now, & its now empty. :D
Alrights, thats all i have to say,
Tomorrow gonna meet up with jamilie & can see rojak (: !
Meeting up with azrill all yeah x)

Its over & over (: All gone yeah!
I love my life now, i feel that im more relax now,
rather than, missing him & hoping he'll text me & thinking of all those stupid things.
With friends, i can make it through. I CAN! (:

Bye' lovesss. :D

I guess, i still miss you )':

2008-12-12T19:02:00.003+08:00

Hello ; back to blogging again.
Yesterday night recieved christina message, asked me to accompany her to do her hair,
so, met her today at 1pm , den go walk walk at causeway point,
after that take bus 965 to khatib . After that, pei her do her hair, till 4plus.
After that go sheng siong buy things. (:
Den headed back to woodlands by bus,
den went to walk walk at cwp. den went home.

; Another day when my phone didn't ring, Without your text ):

I just miss you & i'm going crazy about you !

, Text me, text me, can you? can anyone? T.T

Byeeeeeeeee's .

2008-12-11T17:35:00.002+08:00

Hello everyone :]

I changed my blogskin/song (:

Basically rotted at home, i was over bored, so, decided to change blogskins&song :D

'He texted me today,he said his phone was confiscated ):

& I don't know when will he get to contact me again, don't i?

sighs, what can i do still? forget about everything? D:

Its really hard for me man, GRRRR. haish.

Anyway, yesterday , i made a new friend through msn :}

He was called "ROJAK" (:

Music is his life , wahahaha. so, chatted w/ him on msn till 3plus midnight :O

yawn, & quickly went to bed after that , wahaha.

I find happy to know a friend like him ,

we share the same problems in LOVE . so yeah, we were friends now :D

; What to do? Its hard for me to forget about everything,

i know i should forget by now, but, its pretty hard for me.

It had been 7weeks ever since i fall in love for you :l

GRRR. i hate myself now, stunt*

What to do? *Panick* ;

Its hard for me to forget over 1 night.

But, if i still continue waiting, will the ending be the same as now?

): , im not happy, not happy at all.

No one will feel how i felt now ,

You changed , i changed.

My heart stay still, you haven fade away from me.

Should i let you fade away? or should i remain the same now? )':

I know i've to let go, but, i need time , alrights.

I'll forget you soon, unless miracles appear? (:

, Cheers to have a friend like you, Rojak :D

BYE'S.

2008-12-10T18:40:00.002+08:00

Yes yes, i'm envy of those who are attached ):
I'm torn between everything ,
You seem rather gone, in the world? but, never in my heart.
Where are you? somewhere i can't get you back?
I loved you, & therefore, i can't live with out you.
but, where have you been? i can't reach you anymore.
Why it seems delaying? Its the fourth day,
When i didn't receive your text, are you gone?
Perhaps, i seems as if i were a fool :X
Where are all the promises ? Inside the rubbish bin? or fly until other country?
T.T ; i really wonder, where are you...
I'm crazy over you, ass.

Today, rotted at home, basically, silly until i still thinks he'll text me,
How much i wish, you were the one who text me every morning,
i wish, when i woke up, you'll be the one who texted me,
but, you aren't anymore. i can't even reach you.
i wonder, if you're fine, i wonder, if you still remember me,
Nightmares all over me ):
Your promises is pouring over me,
i wish i could cry in the rain, because,
i want to forget about you, let it wash you off my heart & mind, cans? ):
I know, i have to let go, but, why?
Why must i take this? i really love you & i tot you feel the same,
but, why? no contact, no nothing.
GRRRRRR. Where the fuck are you ? asshole.

; If you're back but, just don't feel like texting me, at least let me know,
so, i won't be so stupid to text you after a hour & hour. ):
You really broke my heart this time.
What to do?
Is it i think too much? or is it the reality?
Everything seems fooling me,
Just few days after the happiest day i spent with you,
it seems all gone, is it a dream? or a lie?
I hate my life now,
read through the text you sent in the past,
so sweet yet so fake,
the promises is all a lie, why?
why do you have to do this to me? ihy!
ihyihyihyihyihyihyihyihyihyihyihyihyihyihyihyihyihyihyihy! )':
Bloody shit me , im so dumb.

; Oh, girl, its time to wake up from your beautiful dream ;
Its just a dream , a lie, & its time to wake up...
} Oh, yah, i should wake up now.. imisshimveryverymuch,
& i still love him like what i use to ... ihatemyself! ):

2008-12-09T23:01:00.003+08:00

Hello, back to blogging again,
basically not in the mood )':
Today went to my grandma house slack loh.
Went there use com, watch tv, take a short 30mins nap.
Listening to music, thinking of him ,. my heart really sanked.
I really wonder , is he back? or he just don't wanto contact me.
i really panick. i don't know what to do.
I feel like i'm a fool now . haish.
What to do? my mind is now black-out.
I thought you'll be back by today, but, why you aren't ?
& why you didn't text me? if you're back now, but, just don feel like texting me,
can just tell me what. haish. i really very stress seh.
i really love him, but, why everything turns out this way?

; I now feel like a fool )':
imyimyimy, my love for you had never changed.
Indeed, it gains everyday ,
its the 3rd day i didn't recieve your text,
i feel that you've changed. but, i didn't )':
I looked through the sms you sent ,
so sweet, yet so fake. D:
So close yet so far away..
You already goneeeeeeeeeee.

2008-12-08T21:34:00.003+08:00

Hello :]
Back to blogging again ;
Today, stayed at home almost for the whole day.
Woke up at around 12pm , den lied on the bed till 1plus.
After that wash up, den eat breakfirst.
I miss him . very very badly )':
Have been hugging the bear for very very long period of time ;]
Just went to cwp with my mum& sis.
Saw beatrice (: haha.
I wonder did he change , as in feelings. hais.
Till now i still haven recieve his message yet,
when will he be back? ): i miss him lah. T.T

'Hope he'll be back tonight & we can meet soon.'

; Now you're gone , now you're gone,
There you go, there you go ,
Somewhere i can't bring you back.
Now you're gone , now you're gone,
There you go, there you go,
Somewhere you're not coming back.
Slips away ; baby, don't fade away...
I really really love & need you ):

2008-12-07T23:58:00.002+08:00

Hello ; late post today .
Basically, ask my post said, i woke up today early in the morning,
after that went back to sleep around 6plus, woke up at 11plus.
Washed up, use com, after that cook things eat loh.
Around 5plus, went out with my parents all.
Go see getai at JE there, lakeside.
Den just now got 1 guy, abit drunk say Hi to me , T.T
puke* , after that alot of drunkers dance behind . EEEEEEKS.
Hais, today is a day, when my phone didn't ring at all.
No one texted me & i don't use to it ,
cos, i use to sms with him everyday ,
I feel so wierd cos i cannot contact with him )':
I miss him veryveryvery much lahs.
I hope things won't change in the mean while even if its only 1-2 days.

; && i'll always love him like no one else does it :)
Meet up soon , imyimyimyimyimyimyimyimyimyimyimiyimyimyimyimyimy!

' I've never had a dream come true till the day that i found you (: '

Bb.
I LOVE _____ x3 !

2008-12-07T16:07:00.002+08:00

I think , i miss you . Oh yes, yes , i really really do.
You went to malaysia today morning @ 6am.
Yesterday night, you asked if i could wake up at 5am today.
Because, you're leaving at 5plus. & yes, i set alarm .
5am , i woke up, smsed you & around 6 den you replied.
I couldn't get into sleep cos , i miss you.
Although you'll be back by tues, but, it seems so long )':
I don't use to it when we didn't contact for days .
Perhaps, these days must be terrible .
I hope, you'll remember what you promised .
Have fun & i'll be missing you badly. (:

Imissyou )'=

; Thank you for a wonderful day on 061208.

} I won't forget this ,
I love you is becos you made my heart fall for you.
When the first time i know you, i know that you're the greatest,
& when i realise that you love me, i know that we'll last long,
& i really hope that it will.....

For who you are , i'll love you like no one else does it.
You made my heart skips a beat ; you're like my heartbeat (:
I love you & i'll always do.

2008-12-06T22:27:00.002+08:00

TITITATUUUUU:)
Hello ;
Firstly : I'm officially fifteen years old already (:
Secondly : Here to thanks those who texted ; phoned ; tagged & commented me :]
Texted :
11.57pm : Bilian gf
11.58pm : Erwin.b
12am : Christina
12.03am : Linus
12.05am : Shuting
}Face to face : Maris.c //
2.47am: Euson
10.01am : Jamilie Nuer
11.49am : Shamir
12.05pm : Xinhui
12.41pm : Audrey saisai
12.41pm : Raymen
7.25pm : Leslie
8.06pm : Brendan
9.09pm : Xueqi.darling
' Thank you very much for your happy birthday text ; really appreciate very much (:
Tagged :
Jane ; Shang yuan ; Shuting ; Verlin ; Passerby ; Wika ; Ahyeen ; Sulivia (:
'Thank you very much for tagging me :D
Commented :
Halim ; Zhihui ; Tim ; Joyce ; Euson ; Bilian gf ; Beatrice ; Meibei ; Klive ; Huiting ;
Wika ; Xinyi ; Azrill ; Alex
'Thank you very much for spending time to write me comment :B
Okay , i shall start :
Today, meet up with bilian & jamilie ,
I was the first one to reach as usual, bilian was late (:
Jamilie came, den she buy me present ; Thank you very much! :)
Walked in cwp time saw azhar !
Thank for wishing me happy birthday , (:
Den go meet bilian gf , she gave me present ; Thank you very much :D
After that go walk walk, den go eat mos burger ;
Den went to meet Erwin , Shamir , Fidaus & Yusman at play craft :B
Erwin gave me present ; Thank you very much :P
Shamir gave me present ; Thank you very much :)
After that, Me , Bilian , Erwin & shamir , went admiralty slack.
Slacked at stair case ,
SORRY to bilian gf for p/s ing her . I hope you understand lah,
i don have much chance ler )': ; so sorry.
2plus den shamir go already , left erwin.
Den he go write my name, vandalised ! ROARROARS.
After that, around 3plus going 4plus, erwin have to go already lo ;
Btw, have spent happy moments with him (x
Den me & bilian go take bus, go my house, put down presents first.
Den went to take 169 bus to yishun mrt,.
Guess what? i was too lucky to saw BRIAN! Our previous dance instructor!
I feel so sad lo, such a coincidence man, made me feel so sad.
When i saw him, my heart sank, cos i really miss him alot seh!
ROARROAR! he promised 1day he will visit us in school :)
YEAHYEAH, hope he mean it, i really very happy to see him.
He also wished me happy birthday (: woah. mai jealous ! shake hand okay ! :DDDD
After that, headed to vivo city, hahaha, damm paiseh, don wanto say out :X
Reached, saw kenneth ! T.T , den know that leslie working at vivo also,
me & bilian go eat, den go find leslie awhile, hahas.
After that, around 8plus, headed back to woodlands,
reach at around 9.10pm , den go walk cwp awhile,
den Home sweet home, so freaking tired man , roars. yawn.
My birthday is gonna end soon )': , however, i won't forget today,
cos happy memories always stays ! :DD
Pictures below :
This bear is from Erwin.B ♥
This Mr bean cup is from Bilian GF ♥
This Air freshener is from Shamir ♥
This big soft toy ; Eyore,Small tiger & chickmunks is from Jam Nuer ♥
This is a pic i took , its me & bilian GF ♥'s leg :D
Basically, have a happy day today .
Didn't expect many ppl who will remember my birthday,

~ I hope you will text me 'Happy Birthday' , but, you didn't . (:

Okay, Trained back wdl time,
Stupid couple infront of me & bilian keep hugging around & like,
bua here bua there ): EEEEEEKS. don want face want, TMD.
Make me feel like slapping their faces loh . T.T

; Thanks to Bilian Gf ♥ which spent whole day with me (:
; Thanks to those who bought me presents ♥
; Thanks to those who texted ; phoned ; commented & tagged me ♥
; Thanks to those who wished me happy birthday face to face ♥ (:
; Thanks to Erwin.B ♥ which brightens my day :D

Okay, thats all for today :)
Goodnight everyone ,
With lots of love :]

I ♥ MYSELF
I ♥ HIM
I ♥ MY GANS
I ♥ MY FRIENDS
I ♥ MY BUDDIES

2008-12-06T10:34:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday to Myself!

2008-12-05T19:59:00.003+08:00

Hello everyone ; blogging again :]
Today, online, asked ppl wanto meet up anot, cos im bored,
Meet up with christina & her cousin , xinyi (:
In the bus to causeway, saw haziqah!;D Pretty seh , haha.
After that wait for bilian gf, pass her the contact lens &
chiong to admiralty meet christina ler, saw jinger in the train . haha.
After that trained to bugis, shop shop, bought a halter top for tomorrow (:
After that went to eat kfc, den jasmin came to pass me 2 hoodies ;D
Btw, I was shocked that christina still remember tomorow is my birthday! ;D
So touched when she gave me a hello kitty piggy bank,
Picture is below, sorry for poor image quality,
cos i found it online & the pic is too small, so i enlarged it (:

Cute right? haha. Thank you very much, christina (:
After that, we rush back to woodlands lo , basically, wanted to grab seats so,
we drop down at raffles place, end up bo seat ): Continued standing,
got 1 guy, bought a big gulp from 7eleven, the water even drip on his clothes,
christ say he was damm smelly :l ROAR. hhaha.
After that, walk to fushan garden find erwin they all,
i think he cut his hair? ((((: Funny seh. actually no big difference,
he just very act cute lah, end up make me angry , wtf.
So, i scolded him 'fuck face' , he say, yalayala, haha ,self-admit ;]
After meeting them ,around 7, went cwp with christina,
buy bubble tea, & bused back home (:
Appreciate to people who wished me happy birthday in advance (:
'Xi sheng ; Firdaus ; Azrill ; Xinyi ; Christina ; Jane ; Shang yuan & Zhiyong :]'
Still looking forward to tonight 12am , i wonder who will be the first one who sms me?
Bilian gf fighting to be the first one, got b'day kiss :)
Haha. Okays,

Tag replies :
Shuting : yeah , feeling better, i just got your hoodie liao, you wanto meet tml? 11.30am (:
Audrey : I won't sadsad ler ler, anw, passs you your lens ler (:
Xiao Jane : Thanks.
TFB-/SSL : Thanks (: & i not pretty how to stay pretty ? (: imy!

Tomorrow is my birthday ;
Anyone interested to meet me up & slack ?
Text me alrights =)

2008-12-04T18:12:00.002+08:00

Hello ! Blogging again :]
Anyway,Today woke up at 8 am,
Went to make ic . T.T , my hair sucks & the photo sucks too . ):
After that, went to eat, bought 2 printed tees. (:
After that went bugis with my mum, shop shop,
bought a square sling bag & 1 tee .
Today, sms him, never reply, till just now den he reply.
Haish, what's wrong with us? T.T

Okay, 2more days to b'day. (:
Didn't even plan where to go yet.
Basically, not in the mood also ...
You asked me to go ;
& i'll go, far far away from you.
Hate that i love you.
Its not about suffering, if i love you,
why must i run away from the sufferings now?
If you think , leaving each another is the best way after we worked so hard.
Than fine , i'll go, far far away from you,
& make sure, you never regret asking me go. ):
I HATE YOU.

' HERO, when are you poping into my life? '
HAIX. Moodless.
Fuck love lahs. :'(

2008-12-03T20:41:00.002+08:00

Hello everyone, back to blogging again.
Basically, just reached home & bathe.
Today woke up around 10plus, listen to music & don't wanto get off my bed,
till around 12 plus, wake up & wash up,
around 1plus, went to bathe & prepare .
My sis & i meet regina again, basically, at interchange,
we take bus 965 to seng kang . Meet the geo lens supplier.
T.T, she only gave me 2 lens, another 2 still haven come. T.T
Got bilian's & audrey's lens first norh.
Meeting bilian on friday to pass her the lens bah.
*Tracy & Esther : If can, please meet me this friday to make geolens payment* :)
After meeting her at seng kang, went to ps.
Shopping around, till 5plus, he finally texted me (:
Somehow, im still not over him.
Alright, later going to derick's bbq? (:
Okay, gotta go already.
3more days to my b'day ; will anyone ask me out?
Anyway, haven decide wanto go where play, any ideas?
Okay, basically, sure meeting bilian on my birthday ! {must give birthday kiss hor!:DDD}

; Sorry im imperfect .
I don't know what can i do,
But, maybe just stay silent for awhile.
This time round, i've prepared for the worse .
Your promises, my worries.. ):

Bb!

2008-12-02T22:29:00.002+08:00

I'm having heart aches now )':
I asked him to go & don't turn back anymore.
Its because, he deserve someone better , & the someone wasn't me.
Cos, i don't deserve him , I wished he won't go ,
But, i know i have to let him go.
Although, i'm sad & heart brokenned, i'll cry or hurt myself,
but, i don't want him to endure this hurts & stress-ness .
I know, in my heart , he meant everything to me & i love him alot.
But, loving someone to the max, its to let him/her go.
I understand & i've to let him go )':
Although, this is not what i want, but, i must let him go ;
I know, i won't forget him so easily , but, i wish he could me happy,
even if im sad, so, i have to push him away ):
He is my perfect 10th boyfriend ,
I hurted 5guys & 5guys hurted me back.
So, its now fair & square. Alrights ,
I love him & i'll always do.

; YOU , do take care alrights :)
i'll miss you.

2008-12-02T19:35:00.002+08:00

LIFE HAS NEVER BEEN THAT TERRIBLE ;Till i realise, you're no longer by my side ):

Today, woke up at 12plus, basically don't wish to get off my bed.
After i wake up, went to wash up & bathe,
after that, eat breakfirst , den make up all,
den leave home & headed to J8 ,
Went there with my sister & regina, basically, listening to music in train,
i feel like crying nahs, i miss him): , as i think of him while listening to music.
Somehow, after we reach there, walk walk, after that went ya kun .
After that, headed back to woodlands, [: ;
went shopping lohs. den went mos burger slack, buy drink,
after that continue shopping. den when going back home,
den went to buy ice cream , $5.40 ; Soy chocolate obession ( cone)
When im sad, i always eat ice cream lah. heees
Don't feel like going home so early, moodless too.
Didn't msg him from morning, till 6plus he msg me.
Okays, i'm not in good mood also.

imh lah.
WFH! (:

Okay, bye's .

2008-12-01T20:45:00.002+08:00

; I feel like im dying , My mood wasn't good at all,
I just finish bathing, & yet i didn't cry . prehaps, later when we sms ?
My heart seems silence ): ; All i wanted was him,
Why i can't have it, he's the only birthday wish i wished for.
5more days to my birthday, didn't even plan to go where & play.
Currently don't even have the mood to celebrate my birthday.
Actually, still thought can go movie with him on my birthday,
now, i think, its left with nothing. i really miss him :(
But, what can i do? I'm all alone now,
Tears is pouring over me,
All the promises went down drains :(
I don't know when will we meet again, i just miss him now.
How i wish, he was beside me now,
If he really did, i will hug him tightly & never let him go .
But, it was just my dream hehs, cos aren't couple anymore.
I just wanto say, he was the only one who caught my attention,
he is my perfect 10th boyfriend i'm looking for,
& i never wanto let him go, but, i can't hold him back.
However, the messages will always be saved in my handphone,
& i always read it. because, it makes me smiles & cry.

; I want to let you know,
I'll never forget the love we shared, & i believe,
If fate were in us, we'll get what we want.
I don't want to make you feel guity or what so ever,
i just want you to smile, cos it brightens my day always.
I love you & yes yes i really2 do ! :l

~~231108;11.02pm~~ ; all gone.
; Will you be back again? 061208 ?
WFY ! & i will always be there for you. :]
} ILOVEYOU,IMISSYOU,INEEDYOU&IWANTYOU!

2008-12-01T19:19:00.002+08:00

Hello ; back to blog again,
Today went vivo city with Erwin & Azrill :}
Its quite fun, basically, Erwin & I waited for azrill, he was late .
After that, took train to vivo city ; went to eat mac first.
They were like monsters! :l , after that, went shopping.
Erwin is acting cute man, roars, he bought a keychain there ,T.T
After that went to the $2 shop ,l0l. azrill was looking for photo frames,
after that went to pet shop, the poodle damn cute seh, like toy.
lol. Hmmms, i think now, i'm single yeah.
Yes, of course i'm very sad ,
when the moment we bid goodbye, 6.14pm ;
my tears seems falling but, i have to push it up ):
I'm really very sad , i think , tonight i will cry like hell.
Basically, cannot blame anyone, cos its suddenly pops out.
So, live it up, i wish, we won't break , but, we have to.
So, no choice, my heart is brokenned ;

'I have no where to go,
I hope, you won't forget me ,
& you'll always stay in my heart
&& i'll always love you like what i always do.
WFY ! (: , Takecares...

2008-12-01T12:10:00.002+08:00

Hello, early post today, later will be going to vivo city,
with baby & azril :] , basically, go there to shop shop lohs.
Hais, btw, i'll be single today, after we come back :)
Somehow, as i said, we've a reason for this ):
I never wanna lose baby & i love him , now & always the same.
However, becos of some reason, we'll have to break up yeah.
If there is really fate, we will be back together soon.
But, i don't have any confident in it . so, didn't think much.
I just wanto say, i love baby, like no one else does it.
Although, after today, he is no longer mine, neither im his .
but, i will always be there for him when he needs me,
My heart sticks to his & i hope i won't fade away from him.

; Baby, i know you don't want this ending too,
but, there's nothing else we could do,
I'll still wait for you because, i know i can't forget you so easily.
Let the love stays , can we?
If there's fate, we'll be back soon :l , ILOVEYOU.!

2008-11-30T21:52:00.002+08:00

Hi readers , i'm back to blog again.
Basically i'm not in good mood.
Woke up at around 11am today, recieved baby's msg.
Hmms, things went wrong yeah, but, its a secret also, hais.
Thing's will start changing from today onwards ):
Today , leave home at 1, went to admiralty to meet them up,
Azrill got his hair cut, like chicken little seh x)
Okay, den slack awhile, waiting for erwin to come down,
but, till 5 like that de he came.
When i saw him, my heart sanks. very sad,
as he also ignored me ,my tears flows. )':
After that, 6, went home with azrill & his friend,
den at bus stop time, erwin bought me a chocolate pocky,
It melts my heart straight away, ): ROARROARS.
After that, bus came, took 912 to cwp, & took 169 home.

'Everything will start to change from today ;
& Today is 1week since we stead :X
I know that we won't be like the past anymore.
But, let everything cool down yeah.
&& friends, please don't ask me what happen yeah.
Thanks alot :]

Okay, bye.
I LOVE BABY!

2008-11-29T19:33:00.002+08:00

ALOHA! :)
Hello everyone ;
Yesterday went to bed at 3plus am, hehs, kinda tired. :X
Well, baby has recovered :] , yesterday he still went for supper with
his family :/ , he's growing fat, yeahyeah, i can bully him x)
Alrights, Met baby & his friends today, basically, left home around 1pm.
den reached admiralty, went to buy drink & waited for baby at staircase,
He reached, alone, let him try the vans i bought yesterday,
It fits perfectly :] HAHA. so, let baby see the 4letters i wroted :/
Heeheeh. like what si0l, anw, he keep acting cute. :D
Hmmms, keep bullying me so , bully him back ,heehheh,
After that, go to court awhile, den baby acc his friend go buy bike spray,
den i went to buy things at admiralty, & went toilet .
den saw yuan he? LOL. den talk awhile, den he rush off ler,
After that i go 7eleven buy water again, baby called me, lol.
after that, went to court, den acc baby & his friend go spray bike.
haha, good right? heeheeh, make till bout 6plus den okay. LOL.
Den baby sent me to bus stop, ask him to go first, he don want. -.-"
After that, in bus, this saw nelson & le wei all, jitao paiseh. :X
act as if i didn't saw them , haha, reached interchange faster chiong down th bus.
Just now baby said " Thanks for everything" . LOL. i was like.,,, T.T ./
Alrights, gonna bathe alreeadyy.
Don't know tomorrow got meet baby anot . hah.

Okay. bye's x3
I LOVE BABY!

2008-11-28T23:25:00.004+08:00

Hello hello ! :]
Sorry, because i got alot of photo :X , heeheeheehs.
Today is a tiring day, basically, yesterday went to sleep at 3.10am,
Today woke up at 10plus am, i was like, tired, cos tot today meeting baby,
but, he told me his fever become worst, so, we didn't meet,
Actually, i was very disappointed, but, nvm la, he sick, no choice,
So, hope he could recover soon! ; Hmmms,
Today, went to bugis with my sister, tot of going there to buy clothes &
find a perfect present for baby, but, it was like,Zzz. nothing caught my eye,
So, i bought a waist belt for myself, den went to eat KFC,
after that, its already 4plus, go top up ez-link card & went vivo.
Its very tiring & i wore heels today, my leg hurts ):
Hah, nvm ,continue to look around & pick present for baby,
actually wanto buy 1 former shirt, $39.90 , but, not nice want,
de design is super duper plain, den end up bought a everlast vans for him :)
His foot damm big lah. haha. okok, den went to ben and jerrys to eat icecream! :]
Den got 1 crazy guy came in to ask for money, i was shocked,
i donno what he want, cos he didn't talk, just give a paper with 4numbers,
i think 4D no. den like, keep begging -.-" , i give him back de paper lo,
den he go another table, still kneel down somemore, wahpiang , T.T
After eating ,den go take mrt home, super tired,
I miss baby, hah, hope he faster recover & can meet soon.

Okays,
Thats all for today lah.
Hope can meet baby tomorrow,
Byebye ; I LOVE BABY! x3